Quondam Alices

Restarting Yoga, Again

2011-01-23T17:32:00.000Z

From July 2010 until November I was doing the best I could pertaining hatha-yoga practice. The method I devised to combine it with weight lifting workouts did work, at last.In the first week of December 2010 I had to attend a very important issue which prevented me for continuing the practice. Then, in mid december I retook gym workouts after two months without them, that I was neglecting for the same aforementioned issue.

But not coming to this blog I forgot how did I plan to combine hatha with weights. I was doing full bore weight workouts and so I decided not to pick up hatha again after the personal issue was solved.

The past sixteenth of January I ended one month of full bore weights training and taking on account the two months (October and November) which I forsook weight training it hasn't been a bad month at all...

I knew that I promised myself to take bodybuilding workouts lightly... but I thought that with good recovery time, not doing yoga and taking a creatine, glutamine, taurine and protein and fairly copious carbs I could return to after two months without workouts to it in a powerful way.

I succeeded. I did seven of the eight workouts I aimed for. They were full bore ones but didn't feel like.

Now that I am rebooting my hatha yoga I hope I will be able to take this two endeavours for ever and for never neglecting them anymore.

Anarthas in Action

2010-07-19T18:29:00.000+01:00

After almost a week since the previous post I wanna record that I am about to start my fifth hatha-yoga session since I started again six days ago. Today the inertia feelings attacked me again. They feel totally alien and even stupid to me and I am proud of having progressed so much psychically for the last fifteen years since the day I started doing hatha at eighteen, and specially for the last twelve years after realizing samadhi of the conciousness transposition (asamprajnata samadhi also known as dharma-megha-samadhi) type. I am proud of this because I note that the frequency of my real self is very different to the mind's and I always note when the thoughts I witness are impositions of the "this"... this is weird. Now I've learnt that when the "this" suggests idleness and sloth pertaining my sadhana, when I fall it's difficult not doing it because there is a sick psychologic/metaphysical game going on in me. The "this" (manas) suggest revelling in the inertia of ignorance and sloth, and the cue is picked up by the senses (indriyas) which """conditioned""" by the memory of sense gratification produce a volition in the self defeating any given quantity of will power for hatha-yoga practice I might treasure.

2010-07-14T20:03:00.001+01:00

It's been a bit more than a month since my last hatha-yoga sessions.

In June I have done hatha-yoga three times and zero workouts. The chronic fatigue wasn't easy to surmount. Not only I didn't have the drive nor the energy to do any physical activity, not only that, but my sleep patterns changed drastically. In the last month I've been sleeping for more than 10 hours everyday, even sleeping 12 hours a day for many days.

I was suffering in this fallen, downtrodden condition for around three weeks until ten days ago I couldn't bear it anymore and started to search on the web for remedies to this medical condition known as chronic fatigue. And what I've found is that one of the remedies used for this condition is ginseng.

Then, I started taking the ginseng (which I already had in my collection of mother tinctures) and things got a bit better. Such was the recovery produced by the ginseng that today I'm starting (mildly) to do hatha-yoga again. Concidentially, the ginseng is also helping me to recover the sharply constant 8 hourssleep pattern I am used to.

When I feel 100% recovered I will try to implement the schedule that I devised in June. I checked it out just now and I know that I won't be able to accomplish it this month. If in the second week of June I was feeling at 40% of my energy but I can say that today, and after taking the ginseng for around a week I am feeling more or less around 75-80% of my physical energy...But this isn't the only reason of my chronic fatigue attack, I am sexually debauching too.

2010-05-26T02:32:00.001+01:00

This month I have done eight full bore weight trainings and four mild sessions of hatha-yoga.

I did no less than three days per week without nutritional supplements nor an adequate diet. Worst of all, I did not recover fully after each workout.

This has proven good to a point as to test my limits but I don't plan in doing it anymore. At first I thought that after three years training I could do without supplements, a good diet and without taking time to recover. But I ended up exhaust.

If I have to choose between the two disciplines, I'd choose doing more hatha-yoga full bore per month than weight training.I have already projected and tried to follow this 12 full bore work outs and 14 mild hatha-yoga sessions per month but that has proven totally demanding and not satisfying at all.

Doing the 12 full bore weight and 14 mild yoga a month and 14 full bore yoga and 12 mild workouts every other month wouldn't be easy. It didn't work out with only 8 full bore weight workouts so I am trying the following routine for the next two months to see if I can endure it:

June

16 full bore yoga sessions and 8 mild work outs and 2 full bore. This, I will try to do with proper diet and proper recovery time.

July

14 full bore yoga sessions and 8 mild work outs and 4 full bore. This, I will try to do with proper diet and proper recovery time.

After this sudden attack of chronic fatigue for making the wrong choices I am keeping the last six days of May for mild hatha-yoga practice.

Progress In My Physical Edge

2010-05-11T18:04:00.002+01:00

In the last couple of months I've managed to change my diet to one more balanced pertaining acids and bases. Besides this I've also devised a plan to be able to be practicing weight lifting along hatha-yoga.

I changed my schedule and the approach I used to these two disciplines. My idea, once implemented, ended up being the following routine:

First training weight lifting in a mild manner, like doing only three different excercises, like abdominals, one specific exercise that can be arms or back and shoulders until I reach from fourteen to sixteen sessions of hatha-yoga at full throtle, that is no less than six asanas per session.

Then stopping the full throtle hatha-yoga sessions and starting to train weight lifting full throttle, meaning abdominals, three specific exercises (like preacher bicep curls, concentration bicep curls and wire bicep curls) and shoulders in each session, until I have ten of these full throttle weights sessions completed.

In the meantime doing short hatha-yoga sessions of only two or three asanas. I finished already one heavy hatha-yoga cycle and one light weight lifting cycle and, at the moment, I am by the fourth full fledged weight session and keeping up with the light hatha-yoga sessions.

So far, it is giving me results. Now that I have the diet bettered I need to better it even further, as being able to reduce carbs and increase fiber and proteins. This will be my next task pertaining physical evolution.

2010-05-05T18:21:00.002+01:00

THIS IS A 18th OF FEBRUARY POST that I couldn't post for security problems.

THE FALL

I come here around hundred days after my last uninspired flirtations with yogic culture.I do not know exactly why I felt, for the last hundred days a complete aversion to any sort of bettering and sobering up of the self, I don't know yet.

That is a third of a year, and it is somewhat alarming.I realize that it isn't easy for a yogui to be aiming to tread the path of yoga in an averse environment as an epicenter of meat industry is.

But on second thought, I mustn't be very much hard on myself for this fall of the last hundred days. I need to plan out my month of workouts in a better way. If I am going to have my stomach all upset for a bad planned diet and a fast metabolism that incites me to eat around six times per day it's just not funny, let alone healthy.

I must plan it in a way that the weight workouts days don't interfere with the hatha yoga's need for mitahara...I have all the workings of the jail-like, barbarian, western megalopolis figured out.

In its emasculation of a reallly healthy and transcendental culture and philosphy of life it tries to condition even the unconditionable. When the reasonings of the hive minds in one's head aren't bought anymore as own thoughts, the ways of the western systems of control and barbarian hive-minds are decidedly blunt and thoughly cohesive and forceful in its infusion of anxiety and impatience for extracting pleasures and benefits from material things.

Working out is not very much funny because of the uncleanliness of the place and of the rank-and-file sort of persons that go to the gym I go, that is on the same block where I'm living. The gym is so much full of germs that for the time being there it clogs my nose so deeply with particles and mucus denoting infection, that it changes my life in a very deep way and for the worst...

This of having the nose clogged for the germs living in the uncleanliness of the gym is a total downer. If I am unbalanced with a bad diet is quite obvious that I would have low defenses and get this kind of nose infections all the time. But I am not giving up.

I need to have the strength of designing a better diet and sticking to it for the sake of being able to continue lifting weights as a means of evolving physically.I have just had an idea, I will split the months in two. In one month, two weeks I'll eat six meals per day and do three full throtle workouts per week, while the other half of the month I'll revert to four meals per day and do yoga no less than four days per week and workouts two times per week, but not full steam like in the first half of the month, but mildly in comparison.

After a nonchalant summer, that is about to finish, of not doing nothing for evolving physically I am fed up with sloth and the intertia of the surrounding demons that live like hogs. I am not letting that interfere with my personal path anymore. I'm not giving up yoga nor weight lifting, NEVER!!!

2010-05-05T17:55:00.000+01:00

1, 2, 3.... THIS IS A TEST OF W.BLOGGER V4.02

2009-11-30T15:53:00.001Z

I resumed my bodybuilding training on 25th of November. I did it using the same weight I was using two months and a half before; when I stopped.

In the mornings of the 23th, 24th and in 25th's I got somewhat carried away by intertia and didn't do hatha. But the point is how I felt on Thursday 26th when I, theoretically, should do hatha in an attemp of getting nearer to the objective I've put to myself (no less than sixteen days of hatha per month). But I couldn't. I felt overwhelmed by the aching in the muscles I was feeling from the workout of the day before . Anyway, I am feeling nonchalant about it since, this time, the deception felt less frustrating than times before when I tried to coordinate the two disciplines and simply couldn't; out of feeling drained of my energy.

Maybe it had to do with resentment from the environment and its consequent tampering with my mind; from where psychic parasites can operate to feed on one's energy

I am noting that workout changes one's body very fast. I got quite surprised when I weighted myself on 25th and I was 151.8 pounds, because two days after I was weighting 158.4 pounds... this is just too difficult to accomodate to a hatha-yogic sadhana when one has to practice mitahara. The two are quite incompatible. I got proof of this in the subsequent weekend when I was feeling sick on the stomach after a lot of food as I started to take because my metabolism got accelerated after beginning working out.

I now will do my tenth hatha yoga session of this month. It doesn't matter at all that I didn't reach my objective of sixteen, but nevertheless, I will call it a month and see if I can achieve it on the upcoming month of December... without stopping weigh workouts, of course.

Weights and Hatha

2009-11-23T15:03:00.001Z

Today, on the 23rd of November I am writing this entry before starting my nineth hatha-yoga session for this month.

Minutes ago I was thinking that since I have put myself the objective of doing hatha no less than sixteen days per month, I have a challenge ahead: doing hatha everyday until the month finishes.

I thought on this better. After all, it isn't a great challenge by itself because in India I could do better than that; somewhere around the twenty or more days per month mark. But I rememberd also that today I am gonna start again with my weight training, so it does become a challenge.

Why? Simply because I've already tried it and it was difficult for me. I started lifting weights to build muscle since August 2007, two years and four months ago and when I was training with weights I simply lacked all sort of motivation and, actually, energy to be able to carry on with my hatha training.

This can't be, because hatha-yoga is ultimatly a very gentle practice exerting almost no strain on the body; unlike bodybuilding. It is more of a revitalizing, healing, energizing and rejuvenating deed. Essentially, this can't be because (to give a specific example) one of the great masters of yoga, Sri Parvti is also a weight lifter. I accept it, She's material nature's Godess and the sister of the Final Truth and everything, but if She exemplifies the two disciplines it is ultimately for one to take it as an example.

Not thinking much about it, it is obvious that to carry on with the two practices I have to turn inward a bit more of what I was turning in. Tapas are required, personally the moment of trying the two disciplines at once (months ago, and today) is the edge of a life of lustful obsession with intoxicants.

The best course of action I can think of is cutting my fag smoking a fag less each time I can until I develop a behaviour/style around the half a dozen per day... the energy squandered there will help me greatly in this objective.

I am doing it

2009-11-10T17:24:00.002Z

I am about to start my fifth hatha session since I've put myself the objective of not letting myself be sidetracked by the inertia of the not-aryans; since the last 2nd of November.

I was taking mental notes of the feelings of procrastination and inertia I felt these days when after waking up I thought about doing hatha or not.

Now, it is very palpable how these procrastinating thoughts are subtle but, it is hilarious to see this, obviously and markedly not mine.

Giving up the inertia of resented creeps that feel violated by well-being culture

2009-11-02T17:27:00.004Z

After a year in which I have neglected my hatha-yoga practices I am starting again.

In the eleven months of 2009 until now, two of these months I haven't done hatha at all, while five of these months I have practiced, but a very lower quantity of sessions of what can be called a "steady practice" (in my eyes no les than 16 sessions per month)...

This is pathetic. As reasons I think there are some:

1) I started doing hatha when I was 17 almost 18 years old, after more than a decade it ends up being quite boring.

2) I often go to a nearby gym to work out with weights.

3) Being in the west the intertia of the barbarians is the less conducive to a sadhana thing I've experimented before. I did hatha-yoga travelling, in mornings in India, penniless, when I didn't know what I will put in my stomach, when having a job in the US, after nigths of partying when I was having a hangover... an in other odd days that I probably was better off doing something else, but lately, couldn't defeat intertia...

This can't be... everyone has an edge. Some have the guts to go against the herd and fight for expressing it while others have it violated everyday.

12-E THERE IS NO "GOING BACK HOME" - 2. "GOING BACK HOME" VERSUS VAMPIRISM

2008-11-15T12:29:00.003Z

"In other words, their speculation is capable of producing "vampirism", and this you can apply to literally every case of linguistic prison. Don't believe me : verify yourself. Take a look at pictures of pre-hurricane veterans of OUR SIDE a long time ago, mainly when THEY were young. Pay attention to reports bringing these pictures from the Fifties, the Sixties, the Seventies, or else do your own research. Analyze their auras. You'll see that everyone of them had "vampirism"."

"And by influencing some society values in distorted ways, they reinforce for your brain the idea of impediment. What is important to say here is that there is no impediment whatsoever for you to do anything, provided that they don't use it later against you."

I accept and share the view of PON pertaining almost all the theories in this section. The objectionable passages are discussed below.

"Kundalinic shells are not 'prizes', 'rewards', 'salaries', 'benefits' or 'gifts' that you could 'receive' in the future, with or without the illusion of "auric death". Realize that there is no receiving and no winning at all. There is no "lottery" in the Backstage. Shells are just modeling clays. And nobody really cares about you in the Stage World. Not one of their characters gives a penny for you in the Stage World.

Do you believe that you have an impediment to have this relationship with a kundalinic shell of your beloved one in the Stage World ? Ask yourself. Do you believe you need it to reduce your vampirism ? Ask yourself."

I think this section is one of the most enlightened of the whole ebook. Perhaps it is, but I do not think that "kundalinic shells" cannot be idealized as "prizes" or "rewards." It may be that they are not actually prizes, but I do think that when "loved ones" are involved one can idealize them as prizes and rewards. And the struggle or "competition" for obtaining that loved shell, can be also idealized. One may not be the only one who has chosen a determined person to be her or his "loved one." In that case, one will have to win the "loved one." Assuming that one does not know the intentions of the "loved one" about her or his love. Besides, does "loved one" mean a relation, physical or protospiritual, where the two persons are completely sure of the of the exclusivity of the other's feelings towards oneself?

I am afraid that PON gives too much importance to the common, base feelings of the dregs of society and spirituality. I note it because I used to overdo it as well. Now I am taking the toil of dissecting PON's entire ebook because I doubt I will find again somebody expressing my own 'paranoid delusions' in the precise, exact way PON does. There is a great cure for all of the bad things enumerated in PON's ebook, and that cure is the obliteration of one's ego and pursuing of one's ideals blindly, with eyes and ears closed to both "stage" and "nagual realities." But sometimes it is not possible to do it. Or, in any other case, it may not be desirable for oneself.

"Depending on the case, THEY will say : that shell is too young for you, too old for you; too pretty (or handsome) for you, too ugly for you; that shell is famous and you're not; that character is poor (if you're rich) or vice-versa; that shell is black (if you're white, for instance) or vice-versa; that character is Jew (if you were created in a christian family or depending on the country you live if you were born in an arab family) or vice-versa; the character of that shell "doesn't combine" with yourself, and so on.

The point is : do you have any prejudice concerning age, race, sex, attributes of the character like job (if applicable), social class, nationality, "personality", "preferences" in the Stage World, likes and dislikes, little manias, etc. ?"

If one starts making a list of attitudes, like this prejudices that one has to bear in both "nagual reality" and "stage reality" as one being "THEIR" victim, one may find that dozens of attempts at washing one's brain are done to one daily. The only remedy being moving elsewhere; a place where you live among equals. A place where you do not need to suffer a society, a workplace, and a neighborhood where "THEY" and "THEIR characters" are "dealing with your case."

"Remember : the hurricane is over in your city and probably in your entire country. The secret Cold War is practically over in the Stage World. The OTHER SIDE can no longer manipulate neutrals and use them to turn the things you do in the Stage World against you. The characters of OUR SIDE are not sadistic monsters. Whatever you do, do with Love. The rule of the Backstage is Love."

As of the writing of this I cannot comprehend completely the concept of "hurricane." I do not feel any of the few things that happened in the world, that I witnessed or felt, as this so-called "hurricane." What are the readers of the ebook expected to think "the hurricane" is? I could not do another thing than interpret it in my way. The point that I do not share about it, is of it happening at once for a determined group of people only, mainly geographically. I think that "the hurricane" may be: a spiritual awakening, a metaphysical turning point of life, a crisis period, the moment one joins a cult, a traumatic experience and so on... but I am sure I am missing the point. If some day PON becomes available for questions, she/he must be questioned about details on "the hurricane." Does PON mean a real hurricane that devastates a place and, letting the people without nothing, forces the victims to experience "a complete paradigm shift" of their life?

12-E THERE IS NO "GOING BACK HOME" - 1. GENERAL CONCEPTS

2008-11-15T12:27:00.000Z

Seemingly, the manners of "THEM" for brain washing one with the "GOIN BACK HOME" technique are true. I say this from a point of view of remembering personal experiences. I lived some times the symptoms and upon verification I was very deluded and dumbfounded when I realized that there was no real basis for a resurgence of... my love for ex-girlfriends. Thus feeling the, dubiously real, "auric death." This happened to me when I was still a jivan. These situations, in which brain washings forced me into, were like teachings on themselves, about the futility of trying the relive dead love that before was alive but it was not anymore. But, for PON, the only "continuity" that is allowed is an ever changing one that cannot allow any reliving of the past?

Why? Take for instance the example of one who decides to write her or his own biography. Indefectibly one is going to relive the past. It will be in the mind, reckoning memories, but it will be a reliving of the past after all. And what is wrong with that?

When PON denies the existence of "biography" and "continuity" in the "nagual reality", PON is denying the personal development that jivan persons or illumined persons may have achieved through the years. Remember that, nevertheless, the situation of being a jivan soul does not imply that the person is, invariably, mentally or emotionally deaf-mute. One given person, being jivanmukta or not may carry on a protospiritual life and, possessing a protospiritual 'personality', may have had developed a 'spiritual biography' after any deeds in the "nagual reality." Whether if a personality and a "biography" in the "nagual reality" may prove noxious to a jivan because of all the negative mind sets brought about by the individuated stance towards life, or not, is just a case of personal, egoistic protospiritual seeking.

I think that after all this ebook is totally detrimental to the protospiritual, psychologic and social development of a person in need of some transcendental advise. PON embellishes some very unlucky things, like mental implants and indoctrinating brain washings, as just "character guidelines", I think it is very serious... sections like this one let me thinking about the intentions of PON. Was PON's intention to figure some day in the list of the books most detrimental to human evolution?

"When you have your crystal activated, access to the pigeon-holes stored in your brain and also to the Backstage itself, you'll be able to play characters in the Stage World, to have your shell changed and also to make use of particular abilities the same way Neo and Trinity did in "The Matrix" when accessing instant "programs" to learn things."

Here the author promises the readers a future on some invented mystical Cyberland that I doubt exists. One can change one's shell, that is accepted. But my personal, painful experience is that having "pigeon holes", if it is that they are what I think they are, may prove useful for gaining ability "to play characters in the stage world", but the other powers, namely "to have your shell changed" (in the way propounded by the author's examples) and to make "use of particular abilities in the same way Neo and Trinity did" like somersaulting from a building's roof to other roof and stopping bullets with the power of thought? And the only thing one needs to achieve that is an "alien crystal" in the brain? Give me a break.

Besides, here, PON begins the delusive and obscure use of the word "crystal". I could not get the concept of what a "crystal" is until I re-readed the parts in the ebook where it is named again and again. PON, elsewhere in the book, says that a "crystal" is either "an alien crystal implanted in your brain by aliens" or "technology." The conclusion I have arrived to, after many interpretations is that these said "crystals" are implanted in the aliens' victims by means of either a physical or an astral 'operation'. Other rationales, those that I first thought of, were that the "crystal" is simply TV, radio and Internet or even that the "crystal" is one's capability to reflect sensations, feelings and emotions. But seemingly, the sense in which PON talks about it is in the sense of alien "technology" implanted in one's brain, literally.

"You're a survivor of the hurricane, and THEY are all characters. THEY are all pretending, like phantoms around you, and they read your mind all the time, manipulating it and your thoughts through the association of ideas, double-talk and artificial synchronicity.

Pavlov did this to mice in a lab, manipulating only acts and behaviors instead of thoughts. Is that how do you want to feel ? Like a rat in a maze ?

Ask yourself : do you trust their characters ? Do you think they are reliable ? They want to manipulate your brain and induce you to take your aura to the altar of sacrifices. Their characters do not want you to be happy. They want to deceive you, they want to take energy from you. Stay alert. Watch out."

If one interprets this and where it reads "characters" one thinks of mosquito-brained automatons, that only do and know what the systems of mind control dictates them and lets them know, then I think this passages are fairly acceptable for their coherence. I wonder in which ways PON is cataloged in the Internet for his or her writings, but I think that the ruthless label of "schizophrenic", among many others, that I have read do PON no justice at all. But lets not call PON a prodigy neither, because "the praises are false."
Yet, I share this view of "THEIR" characters.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI AND SHELLS POTENCY

2008-11-15T12:26:00.000Z

"Wait .... This part is pending.."

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - CONTROLLING YOUR FEARS DURING KUNDALINIC EXITEMENT

2008-11-15T12:25:00.000Z

One does not need to be afraid of She. One just needs to be sober and respectful with she when one feels that She has risen. I became conscious of Her ascent only after being practicing yoga for six years, when I was studying "Kundalini Yoga" by Swami Sivananda Saraswati. I was living in an apartment in a cemetery. The summit of my yoga there was a night of astral projection. But I was very young. I could not harness her power in the first tries... I got dengue fever! It mashed my bones for around three weeks, but then She rescued me with yoga and rehabilitated me in the ten days that followed. I was a kid of 23 years of age. I was doing all sort of spiritual practices, but at the same time acting like a 23 years, like accepting all the whimsical treats that industrial society was putting in my path. Perhaps more austerity and sobriety would help me, instead of having been eating ice cream by cemeteries and crematoriums I could be doing something else.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI IS NO DESIRE

2008-11-15T12:23:00.001Z

"Since the day you were born, mainly if you're a westerner person, your brain has been bombarded with the false association between the excitement state of your sexual organs and feelings like guilt, fear, desire, sin, shame, prohibition, and so on.

Now you may have to deconstruct all these false associations and dichotomies embedded in the very cultural or religious environment in which you have grown up."

When living in bad places, and where I grew up during childhood and adolescence the negative feelings related to my sexual meditations and feelings were always of filthiness.

Living among barbarian "alligators" a little kid and even an adolescent excited sexually feels like a filthy hog with prickly heat
The barbarians who eat animals, they deconstructed, when they have sex, they are just bags of corpses interchanging secretions
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The feeling for sex in the atmosphere deep down into the barbarian shambles is to feel like a dead hog

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI IS WHITE

2008-11-15T12:19:00.002Z

I do not know if it is so. What I know is that, coming all women and men on earth from the same heavenly matrixes, I note that there are certain women and girls that look like as if they are daughters of the god Brahma of the Hindu pantheon. For what I have seen of depictions of goddesses, gods, demigods and devas of the Hindu pantheon, through the centuries and millenia they are depicted with the same faces. A racial memory storehouse exists to keep the depictions of the gods with their original faces. So, if one wants to see why I reject this section for oneself, watch a picture or video of the musician Beth Orton. You did it? Okay. Now search for a picture of Brahma with a close shot of of His face. What do you see? Two persons with certain similar phenotype. If you can, watch the movie "Sleepaway Camp" (Hiltzik 1983) or "Elvira Mistress of The Dark" (Signorelli 1988) The protagonist of the latter and the character Judy of the former, and Beth Orton, if you discern it, they have all three a similar phenotype.

"Sleepaway Camp" I watched this movie when I was a kid. I could not forget it but I forgot the face of Judy. This was in or around 1988. Then, at nineteen I lived the story for which I think this chapter is a brain washing targeted at me. Do not take me for paranoid, after all it is for many reasons that I am writing this commentary. Excuse me if you watch the movies and do not like them. Neither did I. But I need it as a proof to expose my personal problem with this section. Just keep in mind how Judy ends in "Sleepaway Camp."

To begin with, only from PON's twisted view of things can come those interpretations about Kundalini: "BOILED", with boils full of puss? "COOKED" by certain witch whose surname happens to be Cook? "FRIED", with a bad kundalinic acid trip? "GRILLED" on a gridiron that resembles a matrix? In "THE FIRES OF HELL" when Kundalini goes or may go the opposite direction?

We see that PON uses all hot images. Now, what happens if a mentally deaf mute and jivan yogin of nineteen years happens to be passing a holiday with a friend. He is not doing yoga for the time being. An evening he goes outside with his purposes... "YOU KNOW", and then finds a Brahma filled girl, or heavenly fox ("foreigner"), who happens to be trained in yoga and a second language just like the boy character of this example, that's just a few of the things they have in common.

And after they end her virginity that same night, they decide to continue meeting.

They meet a few times again. They share a passionate and unalloyed love. But then something very psychologically devastating for the boy happens: they are giving themselves very passionate French kisses to each other and when the boy opens his eyes, he starts to see the face of his Nazi ex-classmate (the bully of the class), with whom he played homosexually in childhood, instead of the girl's face.

What is important, I said the character was a mentally deaf mute jivan. An encounter when he de-flowers a goddess-looking girl, and a long relation with a seemingly "foreigner" girl like that could be almost the only grace he could have, but no. Not even that the meshes of the western systems of control will allow. Too much dangerous, two westerners, a teen and a post-teen, of yogic tendencies together as a couple.

I have never read nothing so misleading like this ebook. This section is a good example. Once one has watched this three girls (remember to purchase and watch "Sleepaway Camp" to get the full meaning) just relate how the character Judy ends, with the keywords PON uses in this section.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI, "VAMPIRISM" AND MASTURBATION

2008-11-15T12:18:00.000Z

I like what the author writes in this section. I share PON's view of "vampirism." And what PON propounds in this section seems to be true. When Kundalini unleashed Herself in me I was 23 years old and I was already awakened for the last year and half. Provided that PON means "the reduction of your 'vampirism'" to the power over emotions that one may gain when arousing Kundalini. And about the literary talents one may acquire when one's Kundalini rises, I did gain them. When I saw my "vampirism" reduced dramatically, I was doing yoga periodically, almost daily. I gained a confidence with my feelings. This confidence took the place of the feverous infatuations with girls I had before. But at the same time it was not that I was immune to the beauty of the women that happened to appear in my path for some reason. I was not immune nor passive to them. I could approach and start a conversation with the ones that I liked. But it was strange because when I was not awakened nor with my Kundalini aroused, I also had facility to speak to girls I liked. But the desire implied in the two different situations, of before awakening and after and after the awakening of the Kundalini. Very different on themselves. When I was Adolescent I suffered a "pigeon hole"-type programming, and after it, I started being very much bold with women, very often winning those I liked.

This serves me to put forth for the first time in this commentary PON's concept of "pigeon holes." I do not know if I got the concept or theory of "pigeon holes" right. But I think I did. What I understood is this: the "pigeon holes" are manipulations of time and destiny in the walking reality and in the dreamworld for making one have a life experience that it is so, so traumatic emotionally that lets one meditating on it so deeply and so much as to cull many useful teachings out of it. But PON never went so far into explaining the concept of it. If it is that, I understand PON's original concept of "pigeon hole."

What I lived was finding by the streets of a city a very loved by myself ex-classmate and when she invited me to smoke some ganja, I declined and left her with her girlfriend, going away. When in fact I wanted to stay with she and become more friends, of what we were before, for telling her that I loved her. And after that, I have not seen her again.

This is what I think is a "pigeon hole" programming, but very basically. I have experienced other heavier emotional experiences were dreams are involved. I will comment on that when we come to the section that tells about "pigeon holes". What I want to let here in a comprehensible form is that when I was conditioned and without an aroused Kundalini, I could speak to girls I liked, but only after the "pigeon hole" programming. And the drive to do it was a besotted drive of infatuation without substance.

But after being awakened and after arousing my Kundalini I could coldly control my emotions when I flirted with girls and be more sober and confident. I do not want to praise PON saying that PON is a prodigy with the idea of "pigeon holes", but the hints PON gives about what the theory is about, the only information PON gives about them, were the positive and accepted sources of inspiration for this commentary; I have found it exceedingly interesting. It may be due to me believing that I had "pigeon holes" inserted in my subconscious in late adolescence and early youth. Extensive information on "pigeon holes" later.

To end my commentary of this section. I share the view of something needed to cope with the arousal of Kundalini. But to call it mental exercise is to deprecate Kundalini for what She is. PON borrows the philosophy from yoga but does not tell one that the only way of mastering it is making She to reunite with Lord Shiva at the crown of the head. For this, intense mantra yoga or other yogas may be needed. Not simple, cheap "mental exercises." But "pigeon holes" are not touched yet in the ebook. What follows is again, a fall towards non-acceptance and rejection of what PON writes.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI AND YOUR BODY POSITION

2008-11-15T12:17:00.002Z

Sometimes, PON's approaches towards kundalinic wisdom seem utter disinformation to me. Why did not PON developed this and other very delicate subjects in the ebook? Who is PON? Or more properly, who was PON at the moment of writing what she/he wrote? Was a young, perhaps adolescent Kundalini yogini or yogin that wrote this as just an exercise of Kundalini yoga? The point is that more or less, PON only relates Kundalini towards being aroused sexually. Being, formerly, a Kundalini yogin I feel that PON is only giving just very basic indications about what Kundalini is and what She produces in the body of the ones that seeksto arouse She. When PON was writing this book, PON seemingly was still a "linguistic prisoner." In this section PON does not tell one that the western way of sitting, that one in a chair and letting both legs hanging, is detrimental to health and consequently to any kind of yoga work. I myself do not sit in chairs, unless I am visiting a place where one has to sit and those are the only chairs available.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - KUNDALINI AND TIREDNESS

2008-11-15T12:15:00.001Z

I lived the most aware moments of my life when I was living the solution to spiritual, energetic and emotional 'milkers' as propounded by Dion Fortune. When I went to live to other country in a different continent. I point this out because I want to note that one can be awakened but one's Kundalini may not deploy as it should.

I happened to realize with an everyday rigorousness and knack that I have not had before; when I lived in detrimental places. When I lived in a place where my mind could go with the flow I could express my feelings and share them, I could practice different yogas everyday and I wrote around three hours per day. I am not implying that I needed to harmoniously flow, mentally and emotionally, to be able to do it, but I am sure that if one is surrounded by, for instance, brutish and barbaric laborers that live in a way that is quite the opposite of evolution, one is going to be in the need of making a stand for being able to live differently. Because one is going to become a target of the control systems and their brainless automatons and these automatons detect when one goes against the flow in a society. They can start psychodramas of envy, jealousy, jaundice and resentment. At this point somebody can question me what is my argument and justification to decide what is evolution and what is not, and to judge persons by their social class. In fact, I do not know what argument I can give for doing it, just common sense. Meaning by common sense my view on things, shared with my equals, because we follow a particular religion and share a set of traditions, views, beliefs, rules, regulations, customs, practices and so on.

The only and most essential thing needed to live lovingly, freely, pleasurably and serenely happy is being able to live among equals that do not quarrel energetically, mentally, physically, spiritually nor emotionally with one. In the case of hostile neighbors, for one's dignity, I do not see living otherwise out of living making a stand. I will always be looking for a quarrel when away from home, living among enemies, if there is that I have a reason to live like that. But, since I have the experience of paradise (the real home, when one's heart lives) and the promise and the goading certainty that it exists, I will make that stand with love, hope and a grave happiness that my enemies cannot have for not knowing at all how life out of hell is.

What I want to let clear here is that if one is surrounded by jealous and envious, hostile neighbors/enemies that coincidently are in lower rungs of the evolutionary ladder they may target all things alien to them of one's personality like being kundalinic, ritualistic, compassionate, neat, clean, nifty, stylish, satisfied, lonely, intelligent, loving, fortunate, cute, spiritual, talented, enterprising, sober and so on.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - THE ARRIVAL OF KUNDALINI

2008-11-15T12:14:00.003Z

In this section my everlasting interest in the subject felt somewhat defrauded when I read the things PON had to say about "the arrival of Kundalini."

To a title like that I will add that when one feels Kundalini's arrival one will feel like acquiring a finer perception of one's body and soul; specially if one is trying to arouse it by means of any kind of yoga. Relatively simple, normal and common processes like breathing can become a source of knowledge and fun! I am of the opinion that Kundalini's activity can be channeled in any way.

Moreover, pertaining the powers that She bestowed, there seems to be a constant that when Kundalini is awakened in oneself, one can become a literary prodigy.

12-D KUNDALINI IS NO FIRE - BASIC DEFINITION

2008-11-15T12:14:00.001Z

The resumed definition the ebook gives of Kundalini is good. But PON forgot to add that once one acquires the qualities that come along Kundalini arousal, one may keep them although one may fall from the full-fledged, graceful, kundalinic platform. To use one of PON's phrases here: "what is assimilated is already assimilated." If one changed one's way of life because of kundalinic arousal, then one is going to act accordingly. At least that is my personal experience. Kundalini arousal on myself has shaped my personality and, consequently, the way I lived after it happened.

When I begun doing yoga I started feeling sporadic periods of intense kundalinic influence. This happened when I was in my late teens. I begun doing yoga when I was eighteen years old. Remembering those years I have the recollection that, while it was patent that my Kundalini was rising, I was not prepared for experiencing it. I was very, very young and, most important, I was still a jivan. But when after three years of yoga practice I was illumined and, became a jivanmukta, I felt very much at ease with Kundalini.

It is said that one of the signs of Kundalini's arousal is being too much creative; almost to the point of becoming a genius. I am sure that I have experienced Kundalini acting on me before illumination because of my obsession with graphic design and the ability to express it, almost, (almost, because of not being awakened) successfully. After my awakening this obsession became an everyday task. And then came the poetry, fiction prose, non-fiction, and drama writing.

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - THE APPROACH MOMENT

2008-11-15T12:12:00.002Z

Returning to the "pigeon hole" programming or planting topic. I see the moment of approaching a "loved one" as a test from "THEM" to see how much has one learnt from "THEIR pigeon holes THEY" planted in one's brain. If one behaves like a subjugated person, mainly if one does not react, and just stares the "loved one" indefinitely, and stays passive, one may fall prey to the very irony and aim of PON's theory of "pigeon holes" indoctrination by "THEM."

I am sort of upset with PON and the world of "THEM" in general, because I am remembering my programming. I want to say to PON the following: why you behave like a great occultism scholar when you are clearly not? It is very depressing to see that, when one picks a topic from the ebook, one has to deal with the ebook's cryptic, core-hard-to-crack nature of it, just to find the delusions and flawed techniques of, seemingly, an eternally conditioned soul. Are you that, piece_of_nothing?

I dare PON to enter the blogging scene and be the shepherd of the school he/she may have created in this last eight years, so we all can become friends. What about your meetings, you do them? If not, I am going to start a ranking of most dangerous ebooks and rank PON's as the 1st.

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - SHELLS BORROWING AND PREGNANCY

2008-11-15T12:11:00.000Z

"If you're a MALE survivor and some day finally make true love (the so-called fusion) with her using a certain shell, and afterwards this shell gets pregnant and she leaves the shell, would you agree with the idea of letting your and your wife's genetic child to that couple (that shell without your wife plus her partner) to create ? (if you do, mentalize "GOOD FATHER FOR OURS KIDS" whenever you see him)."

This paragraph makes me think about a grandiose paranoid delusion I seem to have for the last 5 or so years. This delusion is about being in love and dating a "foreigner" girl; this happened to me in my middle adolescence. What is important is that when I read this paragraph, and this other one, from "Dismantling keyword HANDICAPPED (plus DISABLED PERSON, CRIPPLE, BLIND, DEAF, DUMB, PARALYTIC, MONGOLOID, FREAK, MAIMED, LAME, etc.)"

"And if you're a man, there is still an additional issue : you may have now a child that is your son or daughter, after your semen has been extracted in one of these meetings in the past, when you were officially a neutral person. You know you'll know this child. It's only a question of time. You will like him/her."

I can just think that PON is talking, again, of something that happened to me. One day when arriving in a Katmandu, Nepal, I think it was the third or four time I went to Katmandu, a new thought unfurled in my mind and started to try to instigate some reaction respecting it. The thought was that one of my girlfriends, in adolescence stole some semen from myself and then inseminated herself out of my knowledge and permission. And that the kid was, at that particular moment when I arrived to Katmandu, 9 or 10 years.

But meditating this again and again, I have diverged in two differing conclusions. One, the most uncanny of the two, is that this girl was in fact more than a "character", I thought that she could be a "foreigner" in human disguise; this, for different reasons too difficult to explain to somebody that has not lived the things I lived nor seen the things I saw, pertaining "foreigners."

I do not know if I will have the drive to tell you about those things later in this book. But as a reply to PON's answer if I will let them or not to "create." I would not, because that girl now is just a woman that looks totally different, and is an expensive hooker that sells her body for her fatherless son. PON meant re-"create"? More artificial sons, why?

The other conclusion is that I was being prey to a brain washing taking on account my knowledge about Carlos Castaneda's books. I feel that whoever was trying to brainwash me with this story of my artificially inseminated son, knew that I knew this of Castaneda. If one is conversant with it, what the character "Gorda" tells in "The Second Ring of Power" about the soul of the persons who had sons or daughters... "YOU KNOW."

About Carlos Castaneda I can say something that one may give to it some use. When I read Castaneda at nineteen or twenty years of age, I have found it like the most mystical and refined occult and 'godly'... fun thing to read. But after studying vedantic and tantric scriptures I have come to the conclusion that Castaneda may be a hoax. But forgive me, please, the memories of Castaneda, his missing disciples and the Yaqui Indians that he, allegedly, studied.

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - SHELLS BORROWING AND ITS IMPLICATIONS

2008-11-15T12:09:00.003Z

"What would you say if your beloved one appeared to you using a shell and a character that has a boyfriend (girlfriend) or perhaps a husband (wife) in the STAGE WORLD ?

Would you be jealous ? Would you be angry ? Why ? Ask yourself.

Or would you have plain understanding and comprehension that everything is just a performance; that that partner she (he) is with is just the partner of that shell, not her (his) partner; and that this shell was already dating/marrying him (her) before your beloved one borrows it temporarily ?"

A young man with telepathic powers falls in love with a diva. Let me take someone looking "foreigner" to give an example here to see if I understood the question. Take for instance Björk. He calls she in his heart and mind and he thinks he is developing a spiritual relation with she.

Björk becomes his "loved one" and he carries her, or he thinks he does, in his heart; only having love for she. Then, four years later, he discovers that for the last three years Björk is married to somebody else. Then, the young telepath will feel defrauded, how can he understand what PON asks the readers to understand?

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - SHELLS / CHARACTERS VALUING

2008-11-15T12:04:00.001Z

"Let's say now that your beloved one appears in your routine, using several shells. To define what kind of relationship you want with her (him), these are some questions you may want to reflect on before THEY induce you to :"

"Do you value her (his) shells ?"
"Is it important to you ? Or totally irrelevant ? Ask yourself."

I will value the "shell" of somebody that I like. I think that everyone may think and feel that one has the best taste and the, differing, taste of others is wrong in some way. When I like a "shell" I do not only like it because it is cute and attracts me. I will value the "shell" because if she has such a cute body, it means that she has a good soul inside. It is important, because as much cuter is a "shell", more goodness of the soul living inside it denotes. It is a karmic law.

"Do you believe there must be an intrinsic relation between the so-called beauty of your present shell and the so-called beauty of her (his) present shells ? Why ? Ask yourself."

Just karmic laws at work. If one sees oneself cute enough as deserving a "cute shell", the most probable reaction will be that one will encounter that "cute shell." In a longing frame of mind, it may be even possible for one to find the "shell" of one's dreams.

"What about the characters connected to each shell ? Do you value her (his) characters ? Do you have any preference concerning this or that character that she (he) may use ? Why ? Ask yourself."

One of her "characters", the one that she has chosen to manifest to myself, is the "character" of an innocent freshman female, and shows me a picture of herself wearing a punk girl "shell", but in fact she is a sluttish porn actress and uses a totally different "shell" when she is shot. Then I will prefer the innocent student girl "shell" instead of the porn fox one.

"Do you believe that there must be a similarity between some characteristics of your present 'life' and some characteristics of a specific character of hers (his) ? Why ? Ask yourself."

Yes, I do. If we are not equals or similar, when together, how will we get along without quarreling?

"Do you believe there are any restrictions for your present shell to have a relationship with any specific shell of hers (his) ? Why ? Ask yourself."

Only in the case of she being betrothed to someone else. Or in the case of an extreme "shell", like the example of the female freshman, punk and porn fox.

"You are NOT a character because you don't have your crystal activated and because THEY don't recognize you as a character. How do you think this fact may influence your relationship with her (him) ? Do you believe you have to behave like a character for her (him) or with her (him) ? Why ? Ask yourself."

No, I do not need to behave like a character, because she is not my "loved one". PON did not say "your loved one appears in your routine"... PON said "beloved one." An alternative "loved one." I do not want to sound misleading, but what if you have a "loved one" and feel attraction to other "shells?" It would not be love but you will want that love to originate and rise. But to behave like a character, yes, I will have to in the case of other contenders looking for the "prize."

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER - ALONE OR LONELY

2008-11-15T11:56:00.000Z

I think this section is bizarre. Does the author take the reader as a stupid? If one has an idealized "loved one" inside, and works faithfully to a reunion someday, then, why one is going to approach one of "THEIR characters" with sexual intentions?

12-C YOUR BELOVED WIFE IS NOT YOUR MOTHER

2008-11-15T11:55:00.001Z

BASIC IDEA

"The basic SICKLY AND DISTORTED idea embedded in THEIR speculation is convincing your brain that your wife (if you are a male survivor) or your husband (if you are a female survivor) is just creating you like a child, is just making you grow up, and then, when you become a grown man (woman), she (he) would liberate you to the other women (men), whom you should date and even marry in the STAGE WORLD."

Again, the most revealing example I have, to give PON the reason, is one related to the Hare-Krsna movement. What PON says under this head occurs in a very similar way in the Krsna's, let's say neo, vedic ashrams of their society. The stages of life are divided in four orders or stages namely brahmacarya (student) 0 to 24 years of age, grihastha (householder) 25 to 49 years of age, vanaprastha (retired) 50 to 74 years of age and sannyasa (renounced) 75 to 100 years of age.

When a devotee is groomed in the brahmacarya stage, if the devotee is male, he is actually encouraged to see and treat all women as the own, biological, mother. Note I said groomed, the idea of becoming a demi-god in the process is imperative. Additionally, everything pertaining the marriage may be arranged although the devotees may deny it. It is so arranged by their gurus, familiars and, they will argue, God Himself. And the gurus are considered the 'spiritual father' of the devotee. But I remind the reader that the Hare-Krsnas do accept the label of brain washers with commitment, resignation, love and happiness. At least that is what they expressed to me.

12-B THERE IS NO PODIUM ON THE BACKSTAGE

2008-11-15T11:52:00.001Z

“(Pending)”

Example #13 - THE SUICIDAL APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:51:00.000Z

"Do you believe that you have to "jump" into some kind of "auric burning abyss" so as to make your "auric sacrifice" to the Gods ? Do you believe there is a Santa Claus, "gift" in hands, waiting for you soon after you commit an "auric suicide" ? You bet there is not. The only thing you'd find would be a tremendous waste of energy, besides emotional suffering. Is that what you want ?"

What does all this mean? Does it mean approaching with loving intentions one of "THEIR characters" instead of being faithful to the "loved one" inside? Thus "comiting auric suicide" irrespective of the outcome of the approach?

But then again, if the "auric death" is an illusion, why one has to have to consider the ways in which "THEY" may want to induce one to experience it? It is all altogether a lie and a waste of energy, specially for those who try to brain wash one with these techniques.

"The same occurs with this SUICIDAL APPROACH. "Let die" is an image that can bring you the idea of falling asleep after an arduous and tiring day, for instance. They may use this expression "let die" referring to a situation where you allegedly "turn off" your controls for a long period - either because your mind is tired or because it is confused - so as you can dive into their illusions, into their DREAMWORLD-TO-SELL that doesn't exist."

These brain washings, these... "behavioral inducements", if coupled with situations in which one is milked of one's energy, may let one at the mercy of the environment's inertia and any ideals of perfection are thwarted. "THEY", mediocrity and its demons, won and one starts to behave like "THEY" want.

Example #12 - THE COME-AND-HAVE-FUN APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:49:00.000Z

"Now there are practically no neutrals anymore in the STAGE WORLD, but the idea remains the same. THEY are characters. YOU KNOW. THEY are all pretending. YOU KNOW. THEY come from and go to the BACKSTAGE reality all the time. THEY have their HELICOPTER trips and their crystals activated. THEY act around you all together like bees, but THEY really DON'T enjoy playing around like monkeys. THEIR goal is to set a 'circus trap' for you. So WATCH OUT!"

This reminds me about the example of the anchor woman I told about before. If someday PON appears, I will ask him/her what were the "circus traps THEY" planted for him/her. Were they of the "Come-and-Have-Fun Approach"?

I think that in my case they were of the "Come-and-Have-Fun Approach" sort. It may be because when it happened I was more known to her and her "characters", long after the censuring by air, and being them public persons they could only help in building a comical synchronicity just to demonstrate something. It was some design I experienced a day returning from a party. It was mainly their element, since the argument of the synchronicity was based in their megalomaniac stance towards life. Was it a design to make me laugh and stole that from me?

Example #11 - THE ASTRONOMICAL APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:48:00.002Z

I think that this bombastic, obscure, topsy-turving example has been written just for the sake of building a frame for this sole sentence:

"Do you see how the seed of speculation has been planted over the last decades ?"

And what has this:

"LOVE IS NOT A PALPABLE 'THING' TO BLAST, IT IS NOT A PHYSICAL OBJECT TO EXPLODE LIKE A STAR. LOVE HAS NO SIZE, LET ALONE A GIANT SIZE OR A DWARF SIZE. LOVE IS NOT RED. THE COLOR OF LOVE IS WHITE OR VIOLET, NEVER RED. RED IS THE COLOR OF FURY. YOU KNOW IT"

to do with all the babble of the above? Granted that western scientists are practically clueless about what a philosophy of life really is, and granted that the story of the star of Bethlehem is a lie without any true astrological basis... should I visualize "stock of knowledge measuring" and "stance towards western science fishing?"

Example #10 - THE CONFORMIST APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:48:00.001Z

This example apparently alludes to an idea deeply rooted in society's collective mind. The idea being that one has to sacrifice one's freedom, dignity and happiness just to be like everyone else; to be accepted in society. Since almost everybody is conformist in any modern society is no wonder that nobody questions this approach. Those living in the fringes of society, artist, monks and such are, perhaps, the only ones that have views on this approach. The rest are conformist by their very own nature.

Example #9 - THE "FOLLOW THE RULES LIKE CATTLE" APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:47:00.000Z

Reading the corpus of texts that a Google search served for the parameters

“matrix”+fringe+knowledge

I came to a stream of western metaphysical and esoteric ebooks, essays and such. By now, except one of them that seems to be written by a Hindu, “The Matrix Decoded.” them, the ebook commented here being one of them, all of these ebooks seem to be written without a religious consideration of reality. I am writing this commentary because staying passively after reading them and not doing nothing could not be a way to be for a person religiously minded as myself.

I dislike profoundly this example. Specially pertaining my “loved one” because it degrades the spiritual rules and regulations aforementioned, those pertaining the dharmic religions. You can call them anyway you like, I am talking about what PON is truly meaning in this example.

One can call them rules and regulations, they are not to be followed only in the “tonal reality”. They are scores of rules that one can find compiled by acharyas (saintly teachers) in cent prized booklets. I have not seen these fanzine-like brochures belonging to any Vedanta nor Shakta religions but I did see these booklets by vaishnava acharyas. These rules are taken directly from the revealed scriptures, what I said before, that are believed to be written, many of them although not all, by the Godhead Her/Him/It/self.

If one has a faith, the thing one will never do is questioning that faith. A person like me, who believes in it, thinks that ultimately it is true. But that all these rules and regulations can be used for the manipulation of the masses, I admit it, and I will give you an example: the dharmic view of the creation is of it passing by four ages, namely satyayuga, tretayuga, dvaparayuga and kaliyuga in the revealed scriptures of the dharmic religions there are rules for each age in particular. And since some of the revealed scriptures were written in the initial ages of the cycles, many rules for that age only may be on them. Unscrupulous persons can take advantage of this or be mislead by this. As if, goes someone with lack of knowledge and starts living by the rules of a gone age. From a point of view of plain ignorance is it good to negate the existence of rules, but please note in which way transcendental rules and regulations can be dangerous although not undesirable at all.

If you get the essence of “The Matrix Decoded” you will understand why I do not like this example. Call it pre-marriage celibacy, puritanism, 'Elvis Syndrome' or anything you like, but if I am going to marry, virtually forever, my "loved one" and dharmic rules give a transcendental explanation about why my choice of staying untouched sexually until I marry my "loved one" is correct, then you will begin to understand what I mean by thinking that dharmic rules manufactured by God Her/Him/It/self are good. The rule is to be followed because of many reasons, being the most important for the world not bringing to it undesired population.

Example #8 - THE CANNOT-BE-CHANGED APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:46:00.000Z

I was very ill-equipped, when I was a jivan adolescent, to surmount all the brain washings, mental implants and programs and synchronizations I suffered when growing up in very demonic place. They were all tended to elicit a blind responsibility and a blind bearing of obedience towards the main theme of the implant on itself, more or less 'you should cut your hair and your beard, buy a suit and go to search for a job in the city or elsewhere around the industrial districts.' Nowadays, I see the same argument sublimated, in the “hive-mind” thoughts of envy, jaundice, resentment and jealousy of human and sub-human jivans far below in evolution's ladder. The point is that I did feel the attempts of jivan enemies rejecting my illumination and my expositions of it, as if they were saying that the previous condition of jivan in which I was messed up, “CANNOT-BE-CHANGED” when actually “THAT'S THEIR LIFE, THEIR PROBLEM.” So what to say of this prosecuting demons and ghosts if they have the conceited belief that for only being able to speak or hear with their minds they are already awakened, while in fact they are not.

Example #7 - THE INEVITABILITY APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:45:00.000Z

“These are two ways of selling the same illusion : the illusion of inevitability of "AURIC DEATH". In the second case, THEY are trying to inculcate in your brain that, no matter how many exercises you do, soon or later your AURA will "die".”

I dare say that the theory in this example may be right. But I have only experienced this approach in very subtle ways. For instance, when trying to quit smoking among equals in orient I was almost always successful. Yet, in occident it was different. In occident thoughts like 'the point in living the life is in living it in a sensual way, if it is with cigarettes, welcome be that way, and to die! If it is that it has to be' when knowing that my ideal of health and purity never can contemplate an abhorrent thought like this one.

Example #6 - THE REINCARNATIONIST APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:44:00.000Z

Happily PON here, explains the meaning of “losing his or her soul” from “The Allegory of The Alien” text. Still, it is incredible that each time the word 'reincarnation' appears somewhere, one has to think that "THEY" are brain washing one telling one that one's soul will someday die.

Example #5 - THE DEBT APPROACH

2008-11-15T11:43:00.000Z

Because of examples like this one I say that I think this chapter is very much far-fetched. I will give an example and then I will explain why I think it is a biased theory.

Suppose "THEY" do not “respect your limits” anymore and "THEY" start using one's own mind, distraction and innocence as tools against oneself. If one is a jivanmukta one has a very vivid ideal of perfection. I, for instance, cannot bear it when the insidious, collective mind (of certain place that knew me when I was a jivan) continues trying to mess me up by means of my own mind and, adding darkness to my experience of reality, intends to make me err; like it did in the past.

If "THEY" succeed then I would feel cheated. Being a jivanmukta I can choose between passively enduring it, for developing spiritual qualities (useless for a jivanmukta that is supposed to already have them) or thinking of it as an offense to my liberated state; that does not deserve something like it, anyway. But then, if I am a jivanmukta that chooses the latter case, I would think 'There is no justice in their darkening of my mind for making me err, I am jivanmukta but they are sometimes able to mess me up, so they must pay me in some way the reparations for what they made me lose.' And from this feeling, that they are indebted with me, I start thinking in how to avenge myself. I would be in my own right to do so because, at first, I had the power of discerning that when I did something wrong I did it because "THEY", the mental leeches and the emotional crooks, where in my mind darkening it with mires to make me err and end up breaking something, losing something or messing up something.

Hence, my personal view on this example is that sometimes may be useful to think in terms of a “debt” that "THEY" must pay.

Example #4 - THE SATISFACTION APPROACH

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As PON refers to the ego he is returning to the “delirium trumans” theory. “THEY” inculcate in one the existence of the ego so one becomes obsessed with the mental projection of one's own self, thinking that it, or any other thing, is one and also thinking that is not possible to live without having an ego. So life goes on and being egoistic one cannot achieve illumination.

“Being purified by his intelligence and controlling the mind with determination, giving up the objects of sense gratification, being freed from attachment and hatred, one who lives in a secluded place, who eats little, who controls his body, mind and power of speech, who is always in trance and who is detached, free from false ego, false strength, false pride, lust, anger, and acceptance of material things, free from false proprietorship, and peaceful — such a person is certainly elevated to the position of self-realization.”

BG 18.51-53

How will one attain self-realization, I.e., illumination, awakening or “activation of one's crystal” if one is prey to any of the obstacles named in the three verses above?

Example #3 - THE SEX APPROACH

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By the example 3 of chapter 12 I have decidedly rooted for PON. In this example PON is telling almost literally what happened to me in my early twenties when I was awakened. Note that “BIRTHDAY” has “SPIRITUAL AWAKENING” as an intended second meaning. This is one of the sections of the ebook where I feel myself definitely targeted and attacked. I will relate briefly how it happened for showing the coincidence of the awakening with the "PRESENT."

It was a Friday, I was in the city of my childhood and loitering by the downtown, with schoolmates, the events concatenated in a way that I ended up, around midnight very high in a mixture of tobacco, alcohol, cocaine, cannabis and LSD. Then came a moment when, as I was about to sit down, I blacked out and fell inside an ocean of endless bliss. It lasted for five or six seconds and I was brought back to reality by the chit-chat remarks of a nearby friend. It can be argued, from the point of view of persons like, for instance, Meher Baba, that if I needed that heap of drug to reach dharmamegha samadhi I am not really awakened. I accept it if one has that point of view, but I do not share the view. Look how mysterious that Meher Baba attacked the drugs as means of reaching dharmamegha samadhi, but then eerily he took a silence vow until he died. When I was prosecuted by jivans not liking my 'uncondition' of jivanmukta, I researched and found about Meher, but I did not buy it from the beginning, since dharmamegha samadhi can be attained by the use of mind-altering substances. The evidence is clearly stated in sutra one of book four of the yoga sutras.

Then, after that, the voices came. I can picture, in a defective way, how it felt if I say that before being awakened my thoughts were bi-dimensional and after the event they became fully blown three dimensional mental trips. From that same night as well. Soon after it occurred I started to walk alone around the city. I started to hear the voices of my friends calling me or simply telling my things in very weird way, everything in the mind. Since it was a Friday there were parties and things around and much youth. In a street, I found a group of two young adults like me with two girls. They said they had just met, meaning the two girls did not knew the two boys from before. They say they are resting after seeing a concert. One of the girls stands up and I steal a kiss from she, I do not why I did that, it was just compulsive. But when we found that we are both from the same district of the city we stick together. We three leave the two other boys. Now the girl starts to abuse me in the middle of the avenue as we are crossing, protruding her hand inside my arse, doing it in a way that I do not know if she is doing it out of love or out of what other feeling. But she does not tell me to go away, we continue frolicking intensely in front of her friend until the bus comes and in the bus, well... you can imagine, "YOU KNOW." She lived around five blocks away, but nothing else happened with she out of that night because one day I went to look for she and her parents, markedly two “DOGS”, won't allow me to see her.

Months passed. I missed her, she was very cute after all... I go to wait for her at the exit of school and I find, unexpectedly one of my former classmates. He was one of the stage crew of a renowned local punk act, but now he is working as a postman for the state! The brain washing is evident, and how ugly that it ends Orwellian when the girl goes out of the school holding hands with someone else. But what to expect in occident after one's awakening?

Example #2 - THE LOSE-TO-VALUE APPROACH

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Well, I have not experienced this approach with conjugal love, but I did with fraternal love. It was with the krsnas. The brain washing was: 'you have to give up your former friends and your family. Your family and your friends and your future wife are all krsna devotees. And along your former friends, family and girlfriends you have also to give up your former possessions. They are just obstacles in you spiritual evolution.' I hope my example serves as a warning for others.

Example #1 - THE ANGEL APPROACH

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Since I am a jivanmukta I have never suffered this approach unless, perhaps, when I was a jivan. I do not remember how I felt for the girls I liked when I was a jivan, but I think I was brainwashed with this approach, at least with one girl. I cannot remember nor realize how I came to be brainwashed in this way but I think I was because I remember longing very, very much for a girl from school and not knowing how to speak to she, whilst feeling a terrible awe and feeling of inferiority towards she that I have not experienced with anyone else.

12 DECONSTRUCTING THEIR SICK KEY IDEAS AND ITS DERIVED SPECULATIONS

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"GENERAL IDEA

This is the main root of the distorted, illusory, sickly, demented and delirious BRAINWASHING system THEY perform thoroughly over your mind, which you may label as "THE AURIC SACRIFICE DOCTRINE", and which you need to dismantle and literally smash from its very foundations.

This system has been artificially and intelligently placed in the songs you hear, in the movies you watch, in TV programs, in advertisements, in the radio, and of course in the sentences you hear and images you see all the time.

It is based on the cynical, hypocritical and false idea that you would have to make a so-called PAYMENT or buy a so-called TICKET, in order to get access to the BACKSTAGE reality, which THEY try to sell you as a delirious DREAMWORLD that simply doesn't exist.”

I think of the opening paragraphs of this chapter that they are so bombastically far-fetched that I did not what think about it until I thought I could do some research about what it says in lyrics, the evidence was appalling. Take a little bit of it and realize for yourself what I say:

"You had something to hide
Should have hidden it,‭ ‬shouldn't you
Now you're not satisfied
With what you're being put through
It's just time to‭ ‬pay the price
For not listening to advice
And deciding in your youth
On the policy of truth
Things could be so different now
It used to be so civilized
You will always wonder how
It could have been if you'd only lied
It's too late to change events
It's time to face the consequence
For delivering the proof
In the policy of truth
Never again
Is what you swore
The time before
Never again
Is what you swore
The time before
Now you're standing there‭ ‬tongue tied
You'd better learn your lesson well
Hide what you have to hide
And tell what you have to tell
You'll see your problems multiplied
If you continually decide
To faithfully pursue
The policy of truth
Never again
Is what you swore
The time before‭”

“Policy of Truth‭” ‬by Depeche Mode

Refer to the "keywords dictionary" for getting the meaning of the lyrics' 'brain washing.' In this particular case I see the brain washing as a positive one.

I cannot give other example out of what happens when one wants to become a Hare-Krsna devotee.‭ ‬The movement Hare-Krsna is allegedly based on love.‭ ‬But it is not so‭; ‬at least not anymore as it maybe was when it just begun‭; ‬back in the nineteen-seventies.‭

The only first-hand experience of monastic life I have... it was acquired after I took shelter in Lord Sri Krsna's feet in my early twenties.‭ ‬But,‭ ‬from the beginning,‭ ‬the experience was not based on love,‭ ‬but on all sort of coercions,‭ ‬fears,‭ ‬needs and social designs.‭ ‬In occident the point is that,‭ ‬either you pay for your place in an ISKCON ashram or you pay them your stay with slave labor.

The fanatics‭' ‬arguments are very contradictory on themselves.‭ ‬They would say‭ '‬everything belongs to the Lord,‭ ‬so let's trade heroin in wholesale quantities'‭ ‬or‭ 'l‬et's pirate collector items massively',‭ ‬or‭ '‬let's go begging shamelessly every weekend,‭ ‬for food,‭ ‬shopkeepers have to give it to us,‭ ‬it's our right',‭ ‬or‭ '‬let's accumulate as much 'resources' (wealth) as possible,‭ ‬for using them in the services of the Lord'‭ ‬and other reasonings of this sort,‭ ‬all gravitating around the‭ "‬everything belongs to the Lord‭” ‬mentality.‭

I went to a‭ '‬seva‭' ‬of Krsna.‭ ‬If one goes on a guided tour of a Krsna mandir one should ask the devotees to show one the‭ '‬seva.‭' ‬But then,‭ ‬when one wants to buy,‭ ‬note that I say‭ '‬buy‭' ‬not‭ '‬beg‭'‬,‭ ‬a scripture from them, in their flashy shops or stands,‭ ‬they are going to charge one three times the price of a normal book.‭ ‬They are very inflexible with payments;‭ i‬t is possible to be charged in advance in an ISKCON guest-house.‭ ‬Do you get the point of the greediness at play there‭? ‬And it is a religious institution.‭ ‬It is like... very contradictory,‭ ‬but it is very palpable:‭ ‬they apply the law of‭ “‬everything belongs to the Lord‭” ‬with the objects that belong in material nature or 'maya'---objects that they covet---and they exploit at will,‭ ‬yet,‭ ‬they sell you their‭ '‬spiritual world'‭ ‬for prices higher than any, supposedly, non-spiritual object.

This of paying for having access to Krsna's‭ “‬nagual reality‭” ‬is just the beginning in a long list of conditions they will try to teach one and make one follow.‭ ‬But the krsnas call‭ '‬spiritual‭ ‬world‭' ‬to the‭ “‬nagual reality‭” ‬and‭ '‬rules and regulations‭' ‬to the myriad conditions they allegedly follow and will try to indoctrinate one about.‭ ‬Then,‭ ‬if you do not see the point in some of them,‭ ‬and if you ask them why it has to be that way,‭ ‬they are going to tell you that the original writer and compiler of the scriptures is the Lord Himself and they have to be followed without questioning‭; ‬only if it is that you are still a jivan,‭ ‬of course.‭

Other point,‭ ‬one may emerge spiritually,‭ ‬live spiritually and be awakened with them,‭ ‬but they are not going to allow one to any of the advanced‭ '‬platforms‭' ‬if one is still a neophyte.‭ ‬They will try to indoctrinate one with the idea that for reaching the‭ '‬transcendental platform‭' ‬one will have to work very hard.‭ ‬Until then,‭ ‬one is considered to be in‭ '‬maya‭'‬,‭ ‬I.e.,‭ ‬totally clueless about how to behave,‭ ‬live and feel in the‭ '‬transcendental platform.‭'

And the krsnas accept Lord Buddha as an incarnation of the Godhead---the‭ ”‬Confederate of Nirvana‭” ‬remember‭?‬---so one can include Krsna's devotees in the label‭ “‬THEM.‭” ‬I will tell you more,‭ ‬when I was with the krsnas we had talks about brain washing and they admit to brain washing neophytes who aspire to become devotees‭; ‬these were not from ISKCON,‭ ‬they were from the other math‭ (‬school‭)‬.‭ ‬But they say that it is a very positive brain washing and a prerequisite for becoming an aspirant to initiation‭; ‬this beside the‭ ‬1788‭ ‬mantras one is advised to chant daily and following a list of‭ '‬rules and regulations.‭'

I share the view of PON for this chapter.‭ ‬With all those beautiful things PON says about love I‭ ‬do not have nothing left to tell about love.‭ ‬The author expressed my view of love with his definitions of it.‭

“Erotic love,‭ ‬if it is love,‭ ‬it has a premise.‭ ‬Loving from the essence of the self---and living the other person in the essence of that being---.‭” (‬Fromm‭)

9‭ ‬DECONSTRUCTING THEIR NEWS

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A) DECONSTRUCTING THEIR "NEWS", B) QUICK REMINDER - PRACTICAL TIPS, and C) QUICK REMINDER - CUSTOMIZING THE EXERCISES FOR YOUR NEEDS

This is‭ ‬2008,‭ ‬the old media now has to compete with the new one.‭ ‬With the Internet one can customize the way one accesses the news and at the tip of fingers one has a myriad of choices.

If one discovers that watching the old TV,‭ ‬hearing the old radio or reading the old fashioned newspapers is a means for‭ "THEIR" ‬persecution and victimization of oneself,‭ ‬then the only thing one has to do is stop the TV watching,‭ ‬radio hearing and buying of newspapers.‭ ‬Period.

If you cannot do any of the above you can try denying‭ "THEIR" ‬speculation.‭ ‬Note that PON in the first chapters urges the readers not to recognize their speculation and then propounds the method of deconstructing all along the ebook...‭ ‬if one practices the deconstructive method,‭ ‬one is ultimately recognizing their speculations.‭ ‬It is a contradiction. Other than that, of course, the advises of not letting the stomach empty when there is danger and of using a discman or walkman outside of one's house are valuable.

As the chapter goes by,‭ ‬in the quick reminder c, PON touches a very,‭ ‬very interesting topic:

“Besides, you may have to consider your regional aspects, like the predominant culture and laws of the country or state/province where you live. THEY may manipulate this culture and these laws to keep you under THEIR control.”

When traveling around the world I saw myself in very difficult bureaucratic situations.‭ ‬If what I was put through was what I think it was it deserves to be called‭ '‬bureaucratic terrorism.‭' ‬I am originally from occident.‭ ‬But I lived in Asia where I was decided to stay‭; ‬for settling there. ‭When you travel with few resources because you are a twenty-three years old young adult you are going to find bureaucratic difficulties that require money to be surmounted. I do not say unlawful, but ultimately bad intentioned, legitimate laws that can be used as a weapon by the bureaucrat “characters”, like zero percent of assistance, at the structural level, meaning going to countries where an embassy or consulate of my country of origin did not exist at all.

Pertaining the nightly dreams,‭ ‬why PON did not tell of keeping a diary of dreams to develop the capacity of remembering all,‭ ‬or as much as possible with as much as possible luxury of detail,‭ ‬of one's dreams‭?

When I was offered with the possibilities and choices of what to do from one of that countries, I did not choose the unlawful,‭ ‬non-painful path.‭ ‬I Think the advice in general is good.‭ ‬Specially the one of developing the habit of not letting the stomach empty to be a prey to psychic attacks.

8-H DELIRIUM TRUMANS‭ – ‬THE TRUMANIZATION OF THE WORLD AROUND YOU

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Western academic,‭ ‬social and institutional structures are insidious and godless‭ “‬linguistic prisons.‭” ‬They use material,‭ ‬non authoritative systems that have control as their common,‭ ‬underlying end.‭ ‬A system like western psychology that tries to label and categorize a non graspable thing like the mind with labels such as‭ '‬psychosis‭'‬,‭ 'cyclothymia'‬,‭ '‬mania‭' ‬and so on, has another name for what the author calls‭ “‬trumanization of the world around you,‭” ‬they call it‭ '‬broadcasting telepathy‭' ‬and it is counted among the symptoms of schizophrenia.

I confess it:‭ ‬I was prey to the‭ “‬trumanization‭” ‬of my life.‭ ‬When I was an unsuspecting jivan and‭ ‬after awakening too.‭ ‬My first experience was when I was an adolescent.‭ ‬I do not forget that I was targeted and hit by an anchor woman pertaining my actions.‭ ‬She openly censured my Internet activity on air.‭ ‬Then,‭ ‬after awakening,‭ ‬many years after the success,‭ ‬around six,‭ ‬I saw an American series,‭ ‬I do not remember which one in particular,‭ ‬using an expression my father used to use to deprecate the protospiritual way of life,‭ ‬that I have not heard never before:‭ '‬mental wankinism.'‭ Changing this gross subject, ‬I am desirous of categorizing PON's ebook.

‭“Artificial Synchronicity, Language Manipulation, Kundalini and the Corners of Reality" (intended original name)
“Matrix brain washing‭” (simplified name given to it by someone else on the Internet)
‭------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
'the blind leading the blind‭' ‬or‭ '‬How to become a REAL source-of-life jivan in more than‭ ‬20‭ ‬practical lessons‭'

With the method of this ebook one may impress teenager vampires,‭ ‬but I think it is not serious at all.‭ ‬By the sole mental volition one will produce when one‭ “‬labels,‭ ‬categorizes,‭ ‬reduces,‭ ‬classifies and compartmentalizes‭” "THEM" ‬one is also feeding‭ "THEM" ‬giving to‭ "THEM" ‬one's time and energy.

But very enlightening points the ebook also has.‭ ‬It is questionable why they are not openly explained.‭ ‬Some are not explained in depth.‭ ‬In this chapter when PON says that any mental theater or mental augmented-by-media theater are bad but does not tell the reader why.‭ ‬Just gives the reader its own concocted notion of how to cope with it:‭ ‬constant blind negation of everything and‭ “‬categorize,‭ ‬reduce,‭ ‬classify and compartmentalize‭” (‬deconstruct‭)‬.‭ ‬One can reduce all of PON's methods to Dion Fortune's only way of coping with psychic parasites,‭ ‬emotional crooks or mental leeches:‭ ‬moving out of town to a place where one likes more and feels at home‭; ‬where people like one‭ (“‬survivors‭”) ‬are concentrated.‭ ‬Concepts like making a protospiritual/mental warfare stand with deconstruction are good,‭ ‬but ultimately it does not‭ ‬give a way to cope with the situation if it really is that you did not look out for being on it and that you want to live in a lovingly romantic way and not in a world of constant quarrel.‭ ‬But coping ways there may be plenty,‭ ‬like selling your TV set.‭ ‬By the way,‭ ‬who is PON‭? ‬A life-member of the akashic library‭? ‬I ask because of the following paragraphs:

“That's a LIE, too. There is no Messiah coming. You're NOT going to "save the world", because the world has already been saved during the hurricane, remember ? You're not Jesus, nor Buddha, nor Allah, nor Moses, you are just and only YOU. Just ONE MORE person.

Likewise, the archetype of the Messiah is also present in many Hollywood movies. It's either associated with the person who deciphers a code or a mathematical problem, or to the one who actually 'saves the world' : that's Neo in the movie "The Matrix", that's the mathematician in "Independence Day", that's that boy in "The Faculty", or Arnie in "Total Recall", for instance.

Well, these movies are commercial and therefore need a Messiah to sell the movie. That's the way the STAGE World works, at least for THEIR characters.”

8-G THE KEYWORDS EXIST ONLY IN THE STAGE WORLD

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Here is clearly exposed what the ebook tells that it is going to expose about double-talk.‭ ‬If you are an innocent or an evolved person you are not going to give any importance to what other people is talking about‭; ‬that you hear by the street or elsewhere.‭ ‬But it is sad that in the case you do,‭ ‬you are surely going to remember the ebook and you will start to ride in a delusional roller coaster because incapacitated of doing something loving, selfless or constructive,‭ ‬quarreling antagonists may use this method.‭ ‬They will try to label you a‭ “‬DOG‭” ‬or a‭ “‬BABY.‭” ‬Take my word for it.‭ ‬I share the author's view on this subject.‭ ‬My personal experience is that they do.‭ ‬They reveal themselves with it,‭ ‬showing that they are resented and do not have a better way to feel,‭ ‬nothing else to do than‭ ‬let those feelings out. What is it called? Jaundice?

I never came to be very enmeshed and ensnared in a system of control that uses sophisticate psy-op methods like PON names. It may be that I lived secluded from society from my late adolescence. Besides, for the last ten years I am an awakened person. But the story of why I lived secluded from society's commonplaces begun a night that talking with friends one of them said something about party culture that has let me thinking what I wanted to do with my life. This happened when I was 18; I was still a jivan. I could not forget that conversation and many times meditated about it. It was enlightening because in the deprecating way my friend spoke about famous people addicted to partying I was left to make the comparison between a life of study and individual evolution or a life in society lived "like cattle", and I have chosen the former.

8-C to‭ ‬8-F

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‭“(Pending)”

8-B THE PRAISES ARE FALSE

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I think that one of the fundamental cornerstones of the web page‭ and ebook “‬Artificial Synchronicity,‭ ‬Language Manipulation,‭ ‬Kundalini and the Corners of Reality‭”‬ is that it is biased by‭ ‬intellectual double-dealings and godlessness to its core.‭ ‬Or the author forgot to urge the readers to discern from whom the praises come.‭ ‬Perhaps thoughts of somebody telling you‭ '‬you are extremely beautiful‭' ‬come from your‭ “‬loved one.‭” ‬This point is not touched in this chapter but in the next.

Anyway,‭ ‬now for an example.‭ ‬Suppose a person who wants to become a new Tolkien,‭ ‬or the next Rowlings.‭ ‬She takes very seriously the point of building a mythopoetic universe or a bulky,‭ ‬super-popular coming of age saga.‭ ‬Suppose she wants to become like her‭ '‬idol,‭' ‬Stephen King.‭ ‬You get the point.‭ ‬Why she has to suffer the coercion to accept the idea that the dreamworld to sell,‭ ‬or deconstructed:‭ ‬the literary,‭ ‬musical,‭ ‬computer and motion picture worlds,‭ ‬do not exist‭? ‬Just because a present condition of jivan does not allow one to live it‭?

8-A DECONSTRUCTING THE SPECULATION‭ – ‬PART II‭ ‬-‭ ‬THERE IS NO GAME

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What I think of this chapter is that it is downright gross.‭ ‬After reading and rereading the chapter around half a dozen times I do not get what the author meant by it.‭ ‬Of one thing I am sure,‭ ‬I feel disappointed with the shallowness of the system of PON.‭ ‬Are you a super-urban person‭? ‬I do think you are,‭ ‬because you have very contradictory views of things while being super urban with the‭ “‬nagual reality‭” ‬all mixed.‭ ‬And I think that the value of this chapter may be only the funny,‭ '‬almost a prank'‭ ‬side of it.‭ ‬I think for moments that PON is trying to delude unaware readers with this ebook...‭ ‬I do not know.‭ ‬I think it is gross because you are touching something out of context for love.‭ ‬You take the most gross meaning of‭ “‬fight‭”‬,‭ “‬contest‭” ‬and‭ “‬sport‭”; ‬for the demonic or underdeveloped,‭ ‬the dire straits of super urbanism:‭ ‬inter-communal resentment‭? ‬After the bathos of all this super urban filler the coping mechanisms are to deny any game in the‭ “‬nagual reality‭?” ‬Beyond your super urbanism you do not seem to give hope to your readers in any way.‭

The only hope in this chapter you bestow it to love but also to a try before you buy your---sort of‭ ‬invented---coping system.‭ ‬There is no God nor demi-gods that can protect and help you of‭ "THEIR" ‬speculation‭?

‭Now I will give you an example of what I mean for the web page not being aimed to super human (jivanmukta) persons like I am. After you read the example, think at once this: if you are a person like the one in the example below, how will you develop? You have to do it 'internally' because your endeavor of protospiritual standing has to be done from other planes. By indirectly denying progress in the “nagual reality” and directly denying the struggle, PON denies the personal development that jivanmukta persons (or even of jivans) may have achieved through the years.

But when I say,‭ ‬for instance‭ '‬other planes‭' ‬I will not say‭ '‬dreaming‭' ‬unless for lucid dreams.‭ ‬I think the development in the‭ “‬nagual reality‭” ‬can be measured for the ability one has for having lucid dreams only,‭ ‬because the others...‭ “‬YOU KNOW.‭” ‬It is very dramatic, but this is true:‭ ‬if you have a protospiritual warfare posture towards the world then you are going to need to invest time and energy in fighting in dreams, as well as during waking life. Provided that you have the power to have lucid dreams at will.‭ ‬I am sorry if you start to see me as if I am cloning PON book.‭ ‬But not at all.‭ ‬Sorry,‭ ‬but for now---chapter‭ ‬8---I think the text is pathetically perfunctory‭; ‬and almost useless.‭ ‬The author never gave an example like this:‭

'You are a neutral,‭ ‬pan,‭ ‬jivanmukta person living in a slum,‭ ‬of back-to-back houses,‭ ‬surrounded by gregarious families of troglodyte laborers who happen to be raksasas,‭ ‬uragas and other sort of demons occupying sub-human bodies.‭ ‬You are roughly surrounded by twenty-five densely tamasic (dense, ignorant, passive, demonic quality) human and sub-human coils that contain a demonic soul each.‭

And if you do not take on account the walls,‭ ‬you have them at‭ ‬ten feet,‭ ‬twenty feet of distance and so on,‭ ‬but not more than,‭ ‬say,‭ ‬forty feet.‭ ‬Meaning that the reaching out of the minds makes your minds mix.‭ ‬They victimize you, out of envy,‭ ‬resentment and jealousy.‭ ‬You try to not think of them, but they manifest,‭ ‬repulsively,‭ ‬attracting your attention and then,‭ ‬say,‭ ‬seven or eight of them,‭ ‬all at once attack you mentally:‭ ‬stealing your energy,‭ ‬thinking with your head or insidiously depriving you of sleep,‭ ‬or trying to adjudicate you their emotional flatness.'

How does one to cope with that‭? ‬Note that I am not saying that a jivanmukta is not at a loss in a situation like this, if what she/he truly wishes is to have a good night of sleep.‭ ‬Perhaps she/he is less at a disadvantage than a jivan but it may prove very annoying anyway‭! ‬If you are like the jivanmukta of the example and you do not enjoy living in a spiritually warring way the best thing,‭ perhaps t‬he only thing you can do to solve your situation is moving to a place with persons with whom you share love,‭ ‬roots,‭ ‬culture,‭ ‬religion or character,‭ ‬or something that makes life worthwhile.‭ ‬Or to move to a place with no people at all, until you know more in which zone of society you want to live.

7 CONSTRUCTING YOUR ANTI-GIVING UP SAFEGUARD

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‭

If one who has a resolution,‭ ‬ideals,‭ ‬plans,‭ ‬projects and a perfect will and starts a protospiritual warfare campaign against enemies or if one,‭ ‬out of being passively among enemies,‭ ‬is caught in the middle of protospiritual quarrel and begins to be targeted with the giving up technique,‭ ‬as I was on several occasions,‭ ‬the jivanmukta is going to notice it,‭ ‬and maybe reject it,‭ ‬at once.‭ ‬But the person with a conditioned soul will have to be very careful because one of the treacherous ways they employ for this technique is the implanted thought,‭ ‬i.e.,‭ ‬making one believe that giving up the protospiritual war is one's own thought‭; ‬one's decision.‭ ‬For the jivanmukta it is clear that it is not.‭ ‬But the alienated conditioned soul accepts the thought thinking that it is her own thought.‭ ‬May also exist the case of a conditioned soul that is strong in some way like by power of its purity,‭ ‬merit or innocence.‭ ‬These sort of conditioned souls may detect the fraud also and not buy it.

These are ideas I have in my mind for the last six or seven years.‭ ‬When I read it I felt that the author was putting into words something I experienced many times and never thought of expressing it in any way‭; ‬let alone find something‭ (‬an ebook‭?) ‬written somewhere.‭ ‬Along this commentary you will note that I will examine the points of view of jivan soul and jivanmukta soul because the latter point of view was not available for this text.‭

I just want to express my feeling of chivalry,‭ ‬should I say,‭ ‬the feeling of chivalry of a‭ “‬neutral‭ ‬pan‭” ‬with sympathy for both the‭ “‬consortium‭” ‬and the‭ “‬confederate‭”‬.‭ ‬I must say that what I really felt when reading this book,‭ ‬that I read in three or so days,‭ ‬is that I was having lots of fun,‭ ‬more than reading some important instructions in a dry doctrine that I do not see how it may‭ ‬work,‭ ‬forgive me but is my‭ (‬biased‭?) ‬view.‭ ‬But I feel thankfulness towards the author of the ebook because I wanted to write something about being a jivanmukta,‭ ‬but did not know what.

Now,‭ ‬for a constructive critic of the ebook,‭ ‬I must say what I really think of it:‭ ‬I think that it is flawed for the sole point of not being written by/for‭ '‬liberated while alive persons.'‭ ‬I ought to reveal you that may exist jivanmukta persons of very young age too.‭ ‬But if you are a kid and you do not have access to knowledge being a jivanmukta kid may prove very challenging with the unease that older jivan‭ (‬humans and humanoids‭) ‬are going to give you.‭ ‬They are going to try to constantly degrade you back down again to the human platform.‭ ‬For persons like those suffering something like this is that I say that the ebook is terribly lacking more kundalinic or directly offensive entropic methods to deal with the blows of the humans and subhumans,‭ ‬if you are an illiterate and/or young jivanmukta.‭ ‬The point is that jivanmuktas are not exempt of being prey to harassing by demonic forces like psychic raksasas and other sort of demons in human bodies like you can find nowadays in myriad places of the Earth.‭ ‬By personal experience I do not feel losing energy and I do not believe any of their idiotic designs are going to be of any avail because of my jivanmukta lack of 'conditionings' and of my perfect will.‭ ‬But hell,‭ ‬it is very,‭ ‬very annoying at times.

6‭ ‬DECONSTRUCTING THE KEYWORDS

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Here comes another of the things that before reading the ebook I was already doing.‭ ‬When I needed to know how many were my mental and pseudo-spiritual enemies and concisely what‭ ‬were the speculations of each type of enemy against me,‭ ‬I made a database to classify them.‭ ‬But it was not a classification of their keywords since I never suffered the keyword method.‭ ‬The classification was of different enemies and their attitudes.‭ ‬In this‭ ‬way I counted with a resource for knowing who I needed to target in my protospiritual‭ ‬warfare works and also I did it to remind me when I had already worked out a certain class of enemy or attitude against myself,‭ ‬for dismissing it, and working another not yet worked out.‭ ‬Here below I share with you the scheme of my compartmentalization of mental and pseudo-spiritual enemies.

Attitudes:‭ ‬The attitudes I saw others had towards myself that I hated.‭

Categories:‭ ‬The social strata or caste of the enemies.‭

By Situation:‭ ‬For instance,‭ ‬enemies known by Internet.

By Place:‭ ‬Enemies that I knew where to find.‭

Those Invisible:‭ ‬Enemies that use silent,‭ ‬non-verbose methods of disturbance,‭ ‬like putting me nervous.‭

Those Repressive:‭ ‬Enemies that are insidious‭ ‬in denying me to live,‭ ‬achieve or have something.‭

Those Envious:‭ ‬Jaundiced and resented enemies that are fond of coveting what they do not have or what they do not deserve.‭

Those Repulsive:‭ ‬Enemies of whom the sole sight is a bad experience.‭

Specific Periods of My Life:‭ ‬Enemies that I knew as friends or whatever in a specific moment of my life, and then they turned out to be more my enemies than the friends I thought we were.

As an anecdote pertaining keywords, I need to share an important event of my life.‭ ‬Years ago,‭ ‬when I learnt about the Buddhist practice of going to meditate to cemeteries... I liked very much the idea and decided to do it.‭

The Buddhist purpose of meditating in a cemetery is for realizing the transitoriness of material existence.‭ ‬Still,‭ ‬I wanted to do it for meditating simply in God.‭ ‬The visits to distinct cemeteries were very much fun at first.‭ ‬I felt very much thrilled by the fanciful architecture of the different memorials I went.‭

But this succession of esthetic pleasures posed an obstacle for concentrating in the form of God I wanted to meditate upon when going to the cemeteries.‭ ‬Occasionally I tried the Buddhist approach‭; ‬meditating on the ephemeral quality of material life.‭ ‬But then something happened.‭

I started reading the tombstones and names on the crypts like reading between lines in a book.‭ ‬Soon after I started doing this I noticed that in each memorial I went there were determined areas where the reading between slabs begun to yield messages.‭ ‬The method was reading a tombstone or a crypt,‭ ‬obviating the following one,‭ ‬reading the third,‭ ‬obviating the fourth and reading the fifth.‭ ‬Reading these three names in different order and also shuffling the letters of some of the names.‭ ‬The experience always started when the first tombstone with a given name‭ ‬for some reason called my attention,‭ ‬and the third and fifth were two other names...‭ ‬that were related in some way to the idea the first slab propounded‭! ‬This was a novelty and a fancy that I cherished for some time.‭ ‬I sort of felt very much touched by the‭ '‬messages'‭ ‬I discovered.‭ ‬The point is that I felt that many of them were aimed at me,‭ ‬but do not take me for a necrophilic paranoid,‭ ‬I just want to expose the advantages of deconstruction here.‭ ‬I felt such a thrill and excitement by discovering these‭ '‬symbols'‭ ‬that I devised a method for calming myself down about the subject.‭ ‬I started going to the cemeteries with a notebook and started writing these‭ “‬symbols‭” ‬down.‭ ‬Then,‭ ‬when I had an extensive stock of them I started studying the ones that I felt I did not comprehend.‭ ‬When I researched I found more inviting knowledge,‭ ‬sometimes related to the general idea that the three signs seemed to be expounding.

These portents,‭ ‬as a whole,‭ ‬seemed to be following a pattern.‭ ‬They mainly seem to touch certain archetypes,‭ ‬like end of times era,‭ ‬the Antichrist,‭ ‬religious pictures,‭ ‬cosmic pictures,‭ messianism‬,‭ '‬reptilism‭' ‬as a subject‭; ‬these are sort of cool.‭ ‬But also others very gross like one that seemed to me to be pretending to feel like a facsimile depiction of a strange,‭ un-forgotten‬ moment of my adolescence.‭ ‬This last one I do not figure out how it could be done at all.‭ ‬It is so alluding to myself that I conclude that is too gruesome.‭ ‬Because for myself to think that in some way I could be spied mentally when I was an adolescent is no joke.‭ ‬But the sad conclusion is that it could be.‭ ‬I do not know.‭

The overall impression I have of these chimeric symbols that taught me to deconstruct is that they may be done by administrators of the cemeteries who have a great bookish knowledge and designing the disposition of tombs they want to play on the emotions of the visitors...‭ ‬to teach them something‭? ‬But to be sincere I do not think that it is only the speculations of the cemeteries‭' ‬staff.‭ ‬I think the administrators of the memorials are mere channels when they assign a determined person to a tomb in particular.‭

5‭ ‬QUICK REMINDER‭ – ‬THEY WILL LABEL THIS PAGE FOR YOUR MIND

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The author was right,‭ ‬in my case‭ "THEY" ‬labeled this page:

‭“Sorry, the page you requested was not found.”

4‭ ‬DECONSTRUCTING THE SPECULATION PART I

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For starters,‭ ‬I will not use the brain damaging word‭ "‬backstage‭" ‬in this commentary.‭ ‬I will refer to it using other of the words that the author used for it.‭ ‬I will use‭ "‬nagual reality.‭"

A‭) ‬THEY DON'T TALK ABOUT YOU

When I am speculated upon I never think of using the method propounded by the ebook to react to the speculations.‭ ‬The method of not recognizing their speculation.‭ ‬But thank you,‭ ‬seems good enough to implement it.‭ ‬I think it is a good coping mechanism.‭ ‬Yet,‭ ‬the method I use to react to these speculations is‭ ‬simply thinking‭ ‬that for being a jivanmukta none of their bad wishes or arguments of my incapability for having something are true,‭ ‬nor that they will determine or condition my life.‭ ‬And also thinking that these mental arguments are just a product of their jaundiced,‭ ‬envious,‭ ‬resented lack of fortune or lack of power to do or have what they envy.‭ ‬These sort of rejections if not the method of not thinking nothing at all about their negativity and/or simply ignoring them.

B‭) ‬SIMILAR ILLUDES SIMILAR

I found that instinctively I did the deconstruction that the ebook propounds.‭ ‬Later on I have read somewhere that a person pursuing a dharmic,‭ ‬vedic and/or tantric way of life has,‭ ‬as a duty,‭ ‬to be different to the common persons that surround him/her.‭ ‬When I lived in orient I did not need to live a life of protospiritual warfare.‭ ‬But in the west when protospiritual and psychic war ensued I found always very easy to free myself from these time wasting mental speculations of others perpetrated on myself by means of the inherent differences of culture and philosophy of life we had,‭ ‬i.e.,‭ ‬the contrast between a person pursuing the philosophy of oriental tantrism surrounded by barbarians that in the best of the cases profess a sort of western,‭ ‬godless secularism‭; ‬if it is that they really have a philosophy of life at all.

It is true, mental crooks,‭ ‬through their "characters",‭ ‬"THEY label,‭ ‬categorize,‭ ‬reduce,‭ ‬classify and compartmentalize your reality all the time.‭ ‬THEY define and describe your reality for you.‭"

Now,‭ ‬in the web book,‭ ‬starts another of the propounded methods for coping with the things‭ “‬THEY‭” ‬do to their victims I will not comment on these methods of mentalization and visualization since I do not need them‭; ‬being a jivanmukta invested with spiritual weapons galore.‭ ‬If you are one also,‭ ‬you will know what I mean by‭ ‬spiritual weapons.‭

3‭ ‬ANALYZING AND LISTING THE KEYWORDS

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I will not comment on the keywords' doctrine propounded by the ebook.‭ ‬I think that if one is victimized with the keyword method one has many ways to cope with it.‭ ‬One can dovetail everything in such a way as not being an easy prey to keyword brain washing.‭ ‬For instance preparing an mp3‭ ‬player and using it each time one needs to walk by the street,‭ ‬commute in a bus or subway or whatever.‭ ‬A different method would be becoming a mantra-yogin/yogini and chanting mantras each time one knows one is going to be attacked with keyword brain washing,‭ ‬e.g.,‭ ‬when commuting,‭ ‬walking by the street or waiting in line somewhere.

By the way,‭ ‬I do not say that the authors are right nor wrong about the keyword method of speculation and brain washing.‭ ‬It may be,‭ ‬but I do not have sustainable evidence nor firsthand experience of it.‭ ‬Anyway,‭ ‬I want to give an example for letting the topic open.‭ ‬Where I am from there is a colloquial expression for the moment when one finally speaks to somebody of the opposite sex because one likes him/her.‭ ‬The colloquial expression is‭ "‬diving in the pool.‭" ‬Consequently,‭ ‬when I found the keyword POOL and its meaning,‭ ‬substantially the same of the colloquial expression I know,‭ ‬I was piqued by curiosity and started to be apprehensive towards the ebook.‭ ‬I started to think how much credibility the ebook deserved‭; ‬not complete credibility for what I think.

2‭ ‬THE FORMATION OF THE PRISON

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"But now,‭ ‬that the‭ "‬hurricane‭" ‬is over,‭ ‬you're still a PRISONER of THEIR language,‭ ‬and can't find your way out of this MAZE.‭ ‬Like Alice,‭ ‬you are still in the rabbit-hole of THEIR Wonderland,‭ ‬which they try to sell to you as YOUR reality-to-be.‭"

This kind of passages of the ebook were the ones that motivated me to write this commentary on it.‭ ‬The conclusion to which I have arrived about this sort of passages is that the authors have not written this book for jivanmukta persons who are reading it perhaps because they still are,‭ ‬unrighteously,‭ ‬being prosecuted as just another manipulable jivan‭ (‬eternally condition soul‭)‬.‭ ‬But I know,‭ ‬if one is a jivanmukta none of those thought implants,‭ ‬hypnotic suggestions,‭ ‬mind controls and mind programming will produce the desired effect.

One can be jivanmukta,‭ ‬but sometimes,‭ ‬specially in western countries,‭ ‬dealing with mental prosecutors that think one is still a manipulable jivan may turn somewhat disturbing and annoying.‭ ‬Regardless of those thought implants,‭ ‬hypnotic suggestions,‭ ‬mind controls and mind programming being actively recognized,‭ ‬fought and rejected by one.

For those who do not know what is a jivanmukta below are two definitions of it:

‭"Jivanmukta (Sanskrit) [from jiva living being + mukta freed] A freed jiva, a human being who has attained freedom as an individualized monad from the material spheres, "who lives in the highest portions of his constitution in full consciousness and power even during earth-life" (OG 73). Often signifies the loftiest class of initiates, adepts, or mahatmas, whether
embodied or disembodied‭; ‬also one who has reached nirvana during life.‭"

Wikipedia definition:

‭"Jivanmukta (from the Sanskrit words jiva and mukti) is a unique concept in Hindu philosophy, and that too, particularly in the school of philosophy known as advaita. The word means 'One who is liberated while alive'. The ultimate goal of Hinduism is Liberation from the cycle of births and deaths. This Liberation is technically called 'moksha'. In all schools of Hindu philosophy except advaita, Liberation is necessarily an event after the death of the body, if at all. But the advaita school of Shankara, envisages that Man is already liberated, his soul is already free, he has only to realize so. So such souls who have had this realization, are called jivanmuktas, though they are extremely rare. "

My own interpretation for the movie Matrix is sort of different to all those I have already read in the last nine years.‭ ‬My interpretation of Neo's 'awakening' is that it symbolizes the moment when a jivan person‭ (‬eternally conditioned soul‭) ‬becomes,‭ ‬by means of God's favor,‭ ‬a jivanmukta‭ (‬free while living soul‭)‬.‭ ‬But I think the symbol is not consistent through the whole narrative.‭ ‬Meaning that I think that the symbolism of Neo's awakening,‭ ‬to be seen as a symbol of the attainment of jivanmukta status,‭ ‬pertains to himself alone.‭ ‬Because Neo goes on showing the qualities that are acquired by a jivanmukta after his/her illumination.‭ ‬For instance mystic powers‭ (‬siddhis‭)‬.‭ ‬While others of the freedom fighters freed by Morpheus, that are supposed to be jivanmuktas also, do not exhibit none.‭ ‬Except,‭ ‬perhaps,‭ ‬for Trinity with her acrobatic skills.

1‭ ‬INTRODUCTION

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"As of March,‭ ‬2000,‭ ‬THEY represent about‭ ‬95‭ ‬to‭ ‬98‭ ‬percent of the total Earth population.‭ ‬YOU KNOW IT.‭ ‬YOU FEEL IT.‭"

The‭ e‬book‭ ‬begins with this assertion,‭ ‬clearly a rhetorical device beyond any substantial fact.‭ ‬For me it is not credible that‭ ‬95‭ ‬to‭ ‬98‭ ‬percent of the Earth's population is acquainted with the ideas exposed in the ebook.‭ ‬Did the authors mean that‭ ‬95‭ ‬to‭ ‬98‭ ‬percent of this planet's population,‭ ‬if not consciously,‭ ‬subconsciously is already a‭ "‬Dragonia‭" ‬or‭ "‬Nirvana‭" (‬sub/super‭) ‬human asset for the exclusive use of "THEM" and the concretion of "THEIR" designs,‭ ‬irrespective of these alleged---victimized---partisans of the‭ "‬Consortium of Dragonia‭" ‬or the‭ "‬Confederate of Nirvana‭" ‬not knowing about the situation‭?

PREFACE

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First,‭ ‬an excerpt from‭ ‬"The Allegory of The Alien‭"‬; one of the companion texts to the ebook

"By exploring the dichotomies that are present in the terrestrial tribes (concepts like right and wrong,‭ ‬rich and poor,‭ ‬beautiful and ugly, famous and anonymous,‭ ‬giving versus receiving,‭ ‬gaining versus losing, success versus failure,‭ ‬sex versus true love,‭ ‬among others‭)‬,‭ ‬the characters of the aliens on Earth involved in this Cosmic War‭ ‬-‭ ‬either the Confederates or the Consortium of Animals‭ ‬-‭ ‬induce each one of the inhabitants of the Earth to‭ ‬"lose his or her soul‭"‬,‭ ‬so as to accelerate the process of defining which one of these alien sides each one of terrestrials prefers,‭ ‬in order to establish an open and definitive contact with Earth in the near future.

For aliens,‭ ‬nothing is intrinsically right or wrong.‭ ‬It depends on the heart and on the beliefs of the person.‭ ‬You cannot lie to the aliens of Nirvana:‭ ‬/you can only lie to yourself./

This process of accelerating the spiritual choices of Neutral persons is gradual and customized for each Neutral individual.‭ ‬It is a process that evolves slowly from city to city,‭ ‬from region to region,‭ ‬from terrestrial tribe to terrestrial tribe,‭ ‬till all the Earth is taken by this‭ "‬spiritual hurricane‭"‬.‭ ‬It is actually a Quiet Revolution that evolved simultaneously in several fronts:‭ ‬/the Alien Quiet Revolution.‭"
‭
A subject important like losing the soul is not touched again in the text except when it explains what happens when one does an‭ "‬auric payment.‭" ‬What I understand for‭ “‬auric payment‭” ‬is the process by which a victim submits to the thought implants,‭ ‬hypnotic suggestions,‭ ‬mind control and mind programming done to him/her by his mental,‭ pseudo-spiritual‬ and physical prosecutors.‭

‭Then, losing one's soul will be doing what one's prosecutors expect from oneself and not what one in one's heart truly wishes to do. Happily the authors have put it between quotes to denote something respecting the expression. But from the point of view of dharmic religions, the statement is utter nonsense. To back me up I have here a quote from the Bhagavad-Gita, Lord Sri Krsna says:

‭“For the soul there is neither birth nor death at any time.
He has not come into being,‭ ‬does not come into being,‭
and will not come into being.‭ ‬He is unborn,‭ ‬eternal,‭ ‬ever
existing and primeval.‭ ‬He is not slain when the body is slain.‭”

BG II.20

In dharmic religions it is believed that every part of a human being functions because that human body is inhabited by a divine spark:‭ ‬the soul.‭ ‬If one loses his or her soul,‭ ‬how will he or she do to continue living‭? ‬The only moment when a body loses his or her soul,‭ ‬in my view of reality,‭ ‬is when one dies.

NON-COMPULSORY PREPARATION

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I will recommend you to read‭ "‬The Matrix Decoded‭" ‬because I think that the author has a viewpoint‭ ‬similar to mine. I will recommend also ‭"Kundalini - The Secret of Yoga" by Gopi Krishna. In this book there is a too exhaustive study of both enlightenment and Kundalini arousal.

‭If you are not an enlightened person, a Buddha, you may find very difficult to grasp many of the concepts touched by me in this commentary. Specially the one pertaining 'jivanmuktas' or 'enlightened persons', but it is your choice, you can get along well and discern what is enlightenment about, because I try to explain, in a very condensed way, what illumination is.

‭If you want to give a quantum leap in you personal evolution, you should read "Kundalini Yoga" by Swami Sivananda Saraswati. There you may find enough basics of Kundalini yoga.

COMPULSORY PREPARATION

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Prior to reading this commentary one should have already read:

"Artificial Synchronicity,‭ ‬Language Manipulation,‭ ‬Kundalini and the Corners of Reality‭"

‭"The Allegory of The Alien"

‭The former will tell one to watch "Matrix" and "The Truman Show" before reading it. You do it also if you haven't already. When reading this commentary, I advise you to have a copy of the ebook commented handy, because piece_of_nothing's gloss is not reproduced on its totality here.

PRELIMINARY WORD

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I decided to write this humble commentary on the ebook after feeling indignation by many of its arguments.‭ ‬I have experienced different feelings when reading the ebook.‭ ‬In the beginning much of its concepts like those of‭ "‬THEM‭"‬,‭ "‬HURRICANE‭"‬,‭ "‬CRYSTAL‭"‬,‭ “‬GLOBAL D-DAY‭” ‬and such were downright challenging and obscure.‭ ‬But reading again the first chapters where these concepts are succinctly explained I came to have an overall understanding of the them and of the ebook as a whole.‭ ‬A great percentage of it sounded to me very much hard to believe.‭ ‬Yet,‭ ‬many of other passages had information on subjects pertaining social,‭ ‬mental and protospiritual phenomena that I had already experienced.‭ ‬I was very excited to the point of gathering the inspiration needed to embark in the endeavor of writing a commentary because on these passages that seemed true to me were things I knew but could not find nothing about it somewhere else.

NOTICE

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As a disclaimer to this work. The author is not liable by no bad reactions nor any bad consequences a reader may be subject to after reading this ebook. This work is for informational purposes only. One cannot reproduce this work in any form without express authorization of the author. This is my hard earned knowledge and my work and I am entitled to make a profit out of it. The use or abuse of the information presented here is a responsibility of the reader only. This work is (c) 2008 by Albiorix.

KUNDALINI UNLEASHED

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KUNDALINI UNLEASHED

A COMMENTARY TO

Artificial Synchronicity, Language Manipulation, Kundalini and the Corners of Reality

Fancifulness of Certain Found Texts

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After reading some of the seriously and professionally written books of Wheeler and Springmeier and David Icke: "The Illuminati Formula To Create a Totally Mind Controlled Slave", "The Rothschild Dynasty" and "The Biggest Secret." Goaded by these and by this, relatively new to me, branch of knowledge about aliens intermingling with earthlings I found a wealth of reading material about the same subject around the net.

My experience with these sorts of esoteric literature about aliens, until these books, was actually kinda scanty. As a kid I read some cheap books about UFOs and aliens that these books called “our superior brothers” that were bought in a provincial, new age, esoteric bookshop that was nearby an, allegedly, UFO entrance to hollow earth. Now Icke has clarified my total ignorance about the foundations of these "new age operations." He says that it is all about mind control behind a mask of new age cults.

But that is not all, five years ago I have read one of those books supposedly deserving some trust about what they are and tell. The book was "Alien Identities" by Richard L. Thompson. Until the books I was reading lately, I had a very structured and slight idea of who the aliens were. The idea I had, that was revealed to me by "Alien Identities", was that the grays were denizens of the hellish planets (of the Hindu universe) who found a way of escape and that is why they (from the Hindu point of view) aren't contemplated as real beings but as mere intergalactic entropy, instead.

Another enlightening book that I have read on these topics was "The Cosmic Hierarchy", three or so months ago. This one I find it very much in the vein of "Alien Identities". But the focus of the subjects on these books are very different to those I have found lately; few weeks ago. These new texts I have read are: "The Alien Allegory," "ARTIFICIAL SYNCHRONICITY, LANGUAGE MANIPULATION, KUNDALINI AND THE CORNERS OF REALITY" "Organic Portals Theory" and I am reading now "Matrix Agents - Profiles And Analysis." I never expected to find something like it. It is a book-length text by two persons, Less Than Zero and Piece-of-nothing (PON from now on) carries very much truth as much ignorance in the theories that it propounds. To begin with, they do not contemplate at any point the existence of enlightened persons. They put in the same bag those who can hear and speak with their minds with those that are integrally awakened.

In general, these four latter texts I am naming do not take on account the 'liberated while living' doctrine. This degrades the persons who, by means of a mystical experience, obtained liberation and are above all the type of persons treated in these texts. The mentally deaf-mute, "soulless" and/or "sleeping" persons and “awakened” ones. I put awakened between quotes because I am afraid that in the way they use the word awakened it is in very western way. Plainly, they call awakened those who can hear or speak with their minds. To use their own terms: those who are aware that the "BACKSTAGE REALITY" exists. And those without this capability are "sleeping souls." These four texts taken as a single body appear to be propounding that.

About "Artificial Synchronicity" In Particular

Being an awakened person I feel insulted because although much of the knowledge exposed in "Artificial Synchronicity" I accept as true, the book seems to be written by conditioned souls and for conditioned souls. Not by real exponents of liberation, as it should have been. I wanna write a very in depth analysis of this book. It is one of the few that has awakened in me the desire of doing so. I do not mean that I wanna do it for finding the errors of two conditioned souls that took a wrong path for freeing themselves. If that is what the authors are; I don't know them. But the sad true is that the image Zero Left and Piece-of-nothing give about their doctrine is of them trying to invent a cult, beyond all cults, for dealing with "THEIR" emotional and energetic crooks.

I can assure you that I am what I say I am, an awakened person. To back me up is the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali system of philosophy. I mean that if it is that I blatantly announce myself as a liberated while living person it is because I lived the nirvikalpa samadhi that liberates one of samsara, karma and spiritual, mental and material bondage in general. You have only my word for it. I do not need to prove nothing to anybody. The only proof I can give is telling you where I felt insulted reading "Artificial Synchronicity".

"Artificial Synchronicity" separates the forces of the universe in two factions: the "Consortium of Dragonia" and the "Confederate of Nirvana." Then it starts to indoctrinate the reader in the evils these two forces infuse in humanity and in him/her with a total shallowness pertaining transcendental ways to cope with “THEIR” control and brainwashing. The books calls “THEM” to both sides (dragonia and nirvana). The book continues with the idea of one having to cope with the mental, spiritual and social blows of “THEM” by means of a system the two authors propound. The system consists in rejecting brainwashings, mental implants and programs and synchronizations and labeling them mentally with mental speech phrases, categorizing them. If there is a shorter way to insanity than something like this, please lemme know.

Yet, I see "Artificial Synchronicity" as a beautiful gift of the authors to humanity. I think they tried to accomplish a great work of helping humanity with it. I liked it very much until certain point. I share the view of “THEM” constantly speculating about determined persons on Earth. It surprises me when I see how, some years before reading this ebook, I was already practicing deconstruction methods like PON propounds as a remedy to "THEIR" brainwashing. The only difference is that after assimilating “THEIR” speculations I processed them in a determined way. Not of erasing them from my reality or memory or decrying it null and void, far from it.
I tried to transmute “THEIR” speculations and spit them out as pearls.

The things that the ebook tells about the aliens themselves are very hard to believe. The credibility I could have in those things... ended; because I begun to feel indoctrinated by the book about the three type of humans treated on it. Those siding for Nirvana, those who side for "Dragonia" and those neutral.

"Artificial Synchronicity" never considers nobody siding for a God/Godess/Supreme Being beyond this earth. What can you expect of it revealing or giving you as a coping tool something like the knowledge of a God and His consort living somewhere in this earth. No, it is just that everybody has a formless Superior Being inside and that will do? Besides, "Dragonia" and Nirvana have developed "Control Centers" on earth while God, if it is true that He/She/It exists, He/She/It is unreachable? They do not give their readers the hope of the possibility of somebody like, say, Lord Shiva or Ridgen. Hundred of millions of shaivas can't go wrong when they believe Shiva lives in this earth along them. But Zero and PON do not give any really transcendental alternative to their readers although the (purported) contenders of the reader are. At least those from Nirvana. This was not news for me. I learned many years before the treacherousness of inorganic beings. Even of those that ares supposed to be good, like devas. Not of firsthand, but in books. Swami Sivananda, if my memory serves me, for one that speaks about this.

The book goes on telling ways one can lose energy. Nowhere it specifies that there exists more states above those three it exposes; of people who, for being awakened, never lose energy in the massive way conditioned souls do. I remember when I was a conditioned soul; I have the best example with it and it will serve me here to give you the idea of what I mean by massive ways of losing energies. Before my illumination I was extremely sick with several auric diseases. First of all I lived in a constant state of panic as soon as I stepped out of my house. It was provoked for the only reason of I being among strangers. Anyway, inside my home I lived also moments of severe panic, even to the point of feeling the particular moment of auric death that Aldous Huxley calls “misterium tremendum.” in his book "The Doors of Perception", feeling that I was a completely alone soul in a world created only as a hell for my punishing, with everybody and everything being just like a software programmed to chastise me. I had a pathological and constant dissociation. I could barely sense other planes of consciousness but I had access denied to them. I was a victim of many things named in "Artificial Synchronicity." I can assure you that for a conditioned soul the constant blows of society can be serious drainers of life force. I share the concept Zero and PON have of linguistic prisoner. I actually was one. Lemme tell you. I worked in a factory as laborer for two months in early 1997; at twenty. I was still a conditioned soul back then. The point is that everyday, or almost everyday it looked as if one of the chiefs delighted in irrupting suddenly in the workshop we were working because the radio was going to give the illusion of supporting his position of power in that factory in some way. And many, many of the times the illusion of the synchronization with the mental subliminal message of “you're just my lowly paid slave” reinforced by what the radio said (most commonly the curtain, like “radio chain 'whatever'” and such, but in fact just another double meaning) I witnessed, but I was amused more than puzzled or troubled by it.

What was a real trouble for myself in those days of being conditioned were the implanted thoughts on myself I suffered and witnessed. I learned that I was being brainwashed by society when a thought in my mind wanted to appear as if I was thinking it,but in the deeper layers of my being I knew very well that the thought was ridicule and it was being implanted on me by someone else. Take for instance 'I should cut my hair and go to work like anyone else.' as an implanted thought when I am very sure I will never cut my hair nor shave my beard anymore and I will live a bohemian life. Even the slanderous defamation of my person when I was not a conditioned soul anymore. I suffered constant bombardments against my psyche with the groundless implanted doubt of having a terminal disease. You can figure out what desidious situations I may have lived being as a, so called, eternally conditioned, source of life person. Still, all the other things are quite a lot of suffering I had to experience before being what I am now.

These were the things: brainwashing, linguistic prison, implanted thoughts, dissociation, morbid fear to public exposure, dissolution of belongings, destruction of hardware by acts of god, constant panic attacks and paranoid attacks!

And when I finally was awakened I, one day like two or three months after my awakening, meditating while being connected telepathically to some friends, I asked, “If when I was asleep, if you had this mental meetings (like the one we are living now), where was I.” their response was of surprise, like saying “You were asleep? We thought that you were awake.” In the next moment I felt possessed by an alter-ego of myself acting like I would act in one of those mental meetings of the past when I wasn't awakened. I mean that I experienced like a double of myself, like feeling and hearing in my mind a clone of myself that used pieces of speech I also used, but rearranged in a way never heard nor spoken by me.

So to speak... these “books”, specially "Artificial Synchronicity" are kind of food for thought, but I will need to be careful because being an illumined, an awakened, I see the book as if it's written by conditioned souls and for conditioned souls... and I feel I want to seek, find and point its flaws ruthlessly and with malice. I will try to be constructive instead.

Concluding, the book is very interesting and very amusing with the fanciful way it has to explain things... what will follow in this blog will be my personal in-depth analysis of it chapter by chapter.

Steady Vice Involution Begun

2008-09-16T04:02:00.000+01:00

It happened. I resorted to herbal alternatives when I was able to do it, and I succeeded. The gathering stage of the process took some few months. But with patience the day when I found myself in possession of nicotiana glauca, lobelia erinus, smilax aspera, valeriana officinalis, hypericum perforatum, ginko bilova and passiflora caerulea came, I knew that I was ready to begin. I begun the 1st of September and could transplant my addiction to cigarettes to rolling and smoking herbal cigarettes.

What I needed to do was to accept that I was not going to be able to quit without some help. At least until my molecular structure regenerates entirely; ie: three years after quitting tobacco. Hence, I needed something for these upcoming three years of vice involution. Some of the herbs I assessed I will need I was already using them. Concisely, they are for the following:

I mixed Nicotiana glauca, known as tree tobacco plus lobelia erinus and they are used as smoking mixture, smilax aspera is in charge of blood purification, valeriana officinalis and passiflora caerulea are the sleep inducing helpers and hypericum perforatum is in charge of dealing with depression.

Since I stopped I have not bought no more cigarettes; except for the last Saturday when I run out of rolling papers. I will buy many rolling papers in advanced as to be able to cope with the thought of “I am quitting and not touchings cigs for many days at a stretch, now that I ran out of rolling papers I can buy a box of luckies and it will make no difference...” because no shop sells rolling papers in my neighborhood. BUT NO, I do not want to fall in this surrendering reasoning again. I am very serious about quitting industrial tobacco smoking.

Quitting smoke with herbal help

2008-07-04T17:18:00.000+01:00

Since I am fifteen there were more than 83000, without counting cannabis, times that I paused whatever I may be doing to light a smoke. This has to stop. Always was easier to buy a box for the torture to stop. I regret something: not being acquainted with cigarette’s casings; I have not been, not until the last year. Of course that I always profoundly enjoyed smoking, but I think if I could be positively instructed in what the casings of cigarettes are I could have enjoyed them thousand-fold… but it have not happened, so I have to conclude that my experience with smoke was an unsatisfactory one for the innocent side. For the not so innocent side, the truth is that with more than 300 or 400 chemicals--the casings--cigarettes finish being something very deadly. I will never forget when I stopped for a while back in 2007, it was for one month and I noticed that my hair stopped to fall in clumps like it used to do all of my smoker life.

I am quitting it… I do not want any of the physical and auric destinies of industrial tobacco smoking. Someday I will grow some, I think, but it will be my pure tobacco and not a weapon of the smoking corporations to kill me. Of course not quitting cannabis smoke, because it is the antithesis of what industrial tobacco is. More thinking in quitting alcohol altogether. This, I already have meditated it and I will not home brew: it is very easy to get killed by a batch that goes wrong; at least in the case of rice beer that was what I wanted to brew. Not to speak of the detrimental auric consequences of boozing…

I noticed an impossibility to quit for more than one day in the attempts recorded at this blog. It was very difficult to me to think why, until I realized what it was I was doing wrong: not resorting to a natural cure to the addiction. I am not the egoistic type of “I will quit tobacco in a single try…”, no, I tried to reduce the dosage to five cigs a day, but it didn’t worked. But now I have looked for something else to cure me of the addiction.

What I have chose is smilax infusions and Indian tobacco. The discovery of Indian tobacco for leaving nicotine is one of the most happy ones I have had in my whole life. Though, I could not find it yet, I am about to buy some online and continue seeking.

Demoniac Findings

2008-04-19T04:42:00.000+01:00

I started this as a mean to organize my ideas pertaining my two religious tendencies: shakta dharma and neo-vaishnavism. I have seen very much neovaishnava misery in God’s institutes that are supposed to be oasis in the desert of material society. The names of the blog were Boyfriends of Alice at first, then Bygone Alices, then the actual name. I started it with mires to see to which extent the neovaishnava dharma was corrupted and after learning yesterday what it was the problem all about, I have rejected it from my heart because of the loath it provoked on me thinking that with any propaganda of it I am just making this demons stronger. They, now, are purportedly the fruit of the demonic seed planted by the illuminati on them. I regret learning all this because it shatters to pieces my desires of being initiated in masonry and have more initiations in neovaishnavism.

As far as I am concerned, the things that are known and published against them must to be true, why wasting time in inventing such grievous stories, huh? So, I am relinquishing any serious spiritual project for them until I am invested with transcendental power. What I mean by this? I can explain it very easily telling you what is my shattered dream: although it was taken by me as a very last resource/resort, I loved the idea to live in the future vedic city that will originate from the Mayapura Chandrodaya Mandir; but since the situation seems to be very degrading there, I am not ready to return to it. And I know that I will not be ready for many years unless I am invested with transcendental power. I feel very much indignation about the whole subject: as soon as Prabhupada died poisoned to death by this crooks, they took over his mission, then started doing their bidding with Krishna’s and Bhaktivedanta’s properties, read: founding a multinational club of pedophiles that now is around two thousand members. What a stone-faced nuisance they are! So yesterday, after reading the tortures several devotees have been put through, I have thought again that I do not want to belong to the vaishnavism of the Madhva lineage. This idea is in me since around 2002 when I was acquainted with the internal problems in Srila Prabhupada’s mission. I think the most salient teaching I learnt with devotees of ISKCON is that once the swamis are corrupted, the whole system rots. I have seen and felt the attitudes and feelings of the devotees in Mayapur and I could not believe the degrees of degradation they are in. Krishna will not destroy me because this denouncement of His devotees simply because it is the truth.

Still, I have the knowledge of being limited to progress and prosperity only in the material creations if I am a devotee of Devi and Mahadeva only. That is why I also pursue vaishnava knowledge. Because somewhere in the future eons my experience in samsara has to end! Or maybe not; I do not know all of God’s plans for me. Of one thing I am sure: I am a jivan-muktha so I am almost totally sure that samsaric transmigration for me will some day end.

Here are the videos that made me remember something I already knew. They helped me to understand the gravity of the situation in detail.

Half a year ago, all the knowledge I acquired after watching this videos has changed me the way I see the world, it is because in one of this videos, at the end, it encourages to search the Internet for “NWO” and for “ILLUMINATI.” I did, and this search took me to a strata of the net full of conspiracy data. In this networks I have found the book by Springmeier and Wheeler, that was a total eye opener. This book has let me thinking that how innocent of me of not knowing that in US, Japan and other countries controlled by the Illuminati, what some victims are forced to live is rarer than fiction. The secret behind the book is that the control apparatus of the Illuminati in US is a sort of Matrix in real life. It is for this that I say it changed my view of the world. I cannot explain you its secrets, you must read the book by yourself. It changed me so much, that, for instance, one of the states I loved was Utah, but after the revelation that the Mormons are an experiment of masonry, I sort of felt very disillusioned with Utah and checked my love for it. Still, you may note reminiscences of Beatrice Sparks in the name of this blog...

To finish with this post, I want to say that I am not “picking a quarrel” as it suits to the kali yuga persons. I just want to keep a watch on this because I feel that being a devotee of Krishna I am being cheated. They are intruders in God’s house and are taking up space that belongs to others that are not rapist danavas like them.

I wanted to make this blog a center of knowledge for topics related to cult abuse. As I told in the introduction I was abused sexually in a dream when I was in Mayapur. I wanted to sift the net for histories of corrupt teachers and make an index, but searching I have found that somebody already took the work of doing that. It will be less specific but the links to the sites that catered to my need of knowledge will always be here. But if I want to have some vaishnava initiation or service for a sacrifice in the future, even in a future life, I need to be an expert not only in vaishnava scripture but also in who were those who killed the Guru of The West and infiltrated his mission to destroy it.

The facts are based in personal experience and also in the revelations that I have got in PADA, FACTNet and. Surrealist.org.

Beginning Anew

2008-04-14T00:02:00.001+01:00

Once again, I will start with the endeavour. But first I have to continue with the chronology of my addiction. I have not stoped to check in which state my will power was. But in this almost four months that passed since my first documented attempt, I could realize that for achieving some progress in the endeavour I have to accept that, although I can’t say my willpower is destroyed on its entirety, my willpower is certainly fragmented. I mean that I can have very strong willpower for certain things, but the most difficult for me to do is apply my willpower to quitting tobacco. The worst side of this, pertaining willpower, is that with the weakness and the vulnerability that the vice carries with itself I am in a very deep mess because the weakness and its consequences influence negatively my willpower as a whole. Let alone my psyche, body and soul.

Not taking on account the physical, mental and spiritual consequences of the vice, is not only the seediness that the residues lets one in, but also the loss of time spent in buying the cigarettes and smoking them. But I told that I will continue with the chronology of the vice. Following is the account on how it went from late 2000 onwards:

Pipe and cigarettes continued when I travelled to Spain. When I was there I was very, very insufficiently fed. I smoked a lot, still I was not showing the signs of unhealthiness that I before attributed to tobacco addiction. Mainly the signs of tobacco consumption in the face. For some eerie reason my face was not hardened as some times before, even though that I was not eating well and smoking very much.

From Spain, I went to India. In India I discovered three things that captured my attention: one was spicy cigarettes, the other was gutka (hard, tasty, chewable tobacco flakes), and beedis.

I tasted the spicy cigarettes, the gutka and the beedis in that order. At first, I felt the biddies as a long awaited alternative to cigarettes smoking. The gutka, sold on those little bags where it is sold, was a too much repulsive way of consuming tobacco for myself so I did not stick to it. It had a most alien taste, it did not taste as anything I tasted before but thinking on swallowing the tobacco with the saliva was a very disquieting reason why I did not want to be ensnared to it. Besides, I felt that the mandatory spitting out of saliva with the residue of the chewing was repulsive for others and for myself, a degradation and a blatant, lustfully exhibitionist loss of corporal energy.

When I arrived to Ind, at twenty-three, I was doing yoga for the last six years. After all, when the novelty faded away, I felt shame of myself, of still being a slave to tobacco. My first resolve to quit came when I was in Goa, soon after my arrival to India. There, in the middle of Goa’s exuberant nature I felt that I was cheating She by the agency of myself. I tried going cold turkey and it was most unbearable. After four or five days of withdrawal I started to smoke again.

The biddies caught my attention. I felt that they were more practical than cigarettes because they took away the craving and were consumed in less time than a cigarette (something from two to three minutes, depending on the brand) I started smoking biddies and a cigarette occasionally. The two pipes I had... they broke down, and I have not seen pipe tobacco in India neither, yet.

I started thinking that I was nearing to being spared from the tobacco vice. The biddies gave me that confidence. Seeing my change from a cigarette to a tiny beedi I thought of it as progress towards the ideal of quitting. How WRONG I was! But I did not know it yet. The years begun to pass. I smoked only biddies, save a few exceptions. These exceptions were like, say, some day I was by the streets and I bought some or another loose Indian cigarette: Stars, Chancellors, Regents. Or Yaks, if I was in Kathmandu. With the discovery of biddies my selection when I decided to buy cigarettes was always a budget one: they were not an obsession to myself anymore I preferred quantity over quality since quantity gave me the edge of not needing to go to buy often. But besides this idyllic first time with the biddies I was missing to smoke in pipe very much. In one of my trips to Kathmandu I bought seven very cool, inexpensive wood pipes; my pipe smoking started again. Now I was smoking pipe and biddies, but I still smoked some or another cigarette. I almost do not have memories of buying cigarette boxes in India. The cigarette smoking I did there was almost always a loose cigarette, sold by the unit that costed from one to three rupees.

One day, like five or six months before leaving Asia I saw a placard in the street that urged beedi smokers to quit. It showed two or three pictures of the malignant tumors it provoked in the mouth of those who smoke it. Then I started to think about how bad beedi was. With just seeing the conditions of beedi rollers in a tobacco sweat-shop I came to the conclusion that with the beedi I was smoking much of those people’s germs and much of the microscopic pieces of their tissues left on the biddies in the rolling process.

Coming to my rescue, a new brand of pipe tobacco appeared. In fact, it was the first brand of pipe tobacco I saw in Ind, its name: Sailor. I quitted beedi and dedicated myself to the pipe only. This pipe smoking continued until early 2007. When the last of those Nepalese pipes broke down, I picked up cigarettes again; in the scale I was smoking them in middle ‘99: more or less a twenty cigarettes box per day.

Since I remember very well that shift in middle ‘93 of smoking only in the morning and evening to smoking the whole day compulsively, and since I remember that it was with Luckies, I think that symbolically, the farewell from the vice has to be with Luckies. Three are left in the pack, after I finish them I am going cold turkey, this time it is decided. Really decided.

Tobacco Habit Involution

2008-04-13T23:43:00.000+01:00

It is the first day of 2008 ad by the Gregorian calendar. After fifteen years smoking I came to the ultimate resolve to quit. Just four reds are left in the pack. I came to realize the bad side of smoking, it is a progressive poisoning until one dies because the radioactive chemicals have taken up all the life in the body; replacing the natural fluids of the body.

As a diary of my Becoming I will begin recording the reasons and the emotional side of it, then I will investigate stats about smoking related to health and finally I will try to deepen in the diseases that smoking produces to the body.

I took up smoke when I was fourteen years. No one of my friends smoked but one. With this one, having a sort of genetic affinity I felt in confidence and since he drank and smoked I started to imitate him.

The worst thing that he has taught me was waking up and lighting a red without nothing in the stomach, not even a single cup of water. I think this gesture of damnation has put a serious conditioning in all what my adolescence was.

I remember that I begun smoking on Saturdays when we used to go to the matinee of a club near our district. I remember going to drink wine before going to the club with my friends. By this time, we were all already influenced by this friend with the alcohol. Of this group of friends I was the younger. We were seven or eight friends some of them seventeen and eighteen, some sixteen one fifteen and I fourteen. I have to confess that my first cigarettes were women's cigarettes. I had tasted reds and they were too much for my untrained respiratory system. They were a serious torture for me, even the women's ones, so I got rid of them throwing them over a bus-stop's roof. The episode with the women’s cigarettes where in ‘90, when I was thirteen. The real start of my addiction to this vice was in ‘92.

I think that the dark side of the cigarettes, in my case, is very much the same as what it was when I begun and what it has become. When I took it for the very first time, in a somewhat, serious way was around the same time that near by to my house a video arcade was opened. I think around two months since the opening of the video arcade. I begun smoking on the afternoons when I was alone in my house. Then, by the time my mom returned I used to go out with the remnant of the pack and finish them around the video arcade. I am sure that by December of '92, after six months smoking, I was already hooked to the vice.

Still, by then I smoked only on the afternoons and outside. I remember that I shuffled among three brands: reds, camels and Luckies thinking I could differentiate their flavours and, sometimes for seasons, having a fishy taste for one out of the other two.
The dark side of smoking, in my case, is the time drain that it could manage to inflict on a viciously compulsive smoker like I was.

I think that the ghosts, spirits, minds and demons that one is exposed to, specially being an innocent kid of fourteen in a bad social cityscape are very much at an advantage for hooking the kid in a vice so violent and deadly like tobacco smoking is.

Returning to the video arcade, I fall in the reckoning that it is very sad of a coincidence that I sacrificed time playing video games for smoking.

As I grew up in an entertainment-wise family, I am not of the ideology of looking down on video games as vices. I think video games are not vices; not even in the cases where they impede a "normal development of the personality and appropriate functioning in the society of the subject." But tobacco has conditioned my video gaming passion considering that each of the aforementioned cigarettes takes around five minutes with fifteen seconds to be smoked. Start adding cigarette over cigarette and you come to around half an hour lost outside just for smoking...

The video arcade did not last much. But I have left it before it closed; when I begun going to a school near the downtown. I had to commute a lot when I was fifteen years. Like three hours per day were lost in buses and subways. As an aid to the wrong things in my life that were beginning, this of commuting instead of the normal thing of going to a school near my house added to the novelty of beginning to smoke at night in my house and sometimes in the morning. I think that April or may of '93 are the most likely months that I can say is when I begun smoking compulsively. It had ceased being fun because after around four months that it became a vice to me, now it became a compulsion.

Wednesday 2nd of January 2008
It is the afternoon. Yesterday I smoked the last red at around nine pm. I did not felt craving for the rest of the day. Yesterday I was supposed to stop, but today, after sixteen hours without touching cigarettes the craving sensation returned. I was decided to stay without smoking and bearing the craving sensation, but I could not do it. After fifteen years, I have to accept it, I am ensnared deeply in this deadly vice. Today I needed to go out to make a phone call since I am without the phone for the last two weeks. I think that I can keep myself aloof from the vice as long as I resist the temptation. But once I go out of the house, with money in my pocket and feeling the craving sensation, it begins to be difficult.

Going to the gas station's shop for making the phone call did not help me. There, the temptation to buy cigarettes was so much strong that I bought a pack of Luckies.

I have to learn the ability of depositing all my strength in the force of my will. But the sensation is so overwhelming that it is easier to finish it smoking a cigarette instead of learning to build up my will force. To rebuild it is the proper term, since I feel it destroyed.

For keeping up with the endeavor I have decided the following: I will not go out of the house until three weeks without smoking have passed. I am sure that three weeks is the essential minimum to begin cleaning my body of nicotine and to call it a start. I am sure that if I can stay three weeks clean, I will be able to stay clean three months. I think that three weeks are enough to begin the detox. I know that if I can stay more or less three months without smoking my organism will be completely clean of it. If I manage to keep aloof from tobacco for three years, then when the three years without smoke have passed I can consider myself having a new body free of the vice. Only after three years, because that is the time that the molecular structure of the body takes for regenerating itself, that is like having a new body.

Now I want to resume the reckoning of how my tobacco vice developed.

In those days of '93 when I begun smoking compulsively I smoked less than ten cigarettes per day. But by the end of '94 I had already discovered that smoking a cigarette after eating was one of the main characteristics of the vice. As if it was impossible not having a cigarette for relaxing after talking a meal. I remember that I begun with these brands:

First pack bought by myself: Virginia Slims (middle '90)

First pack smoked in front of the computer: Camel (Early '92)

First cigarettes shared with friends: Marlboro (Early '92)

First cigarettes box that I bought and thought as superb in taste: Camel (after the first season of five or six months buying Marlboro)

In middle '92 I started, as I said before, to shuffle between Camel, Marlboro and Lucky. But mostly Marlboro, since in Argentina, in the early nineties, the only brand that sold the ten-cigarettes pack was Marlboro, and I did not felt that I needed to smoke more than ten per day.

This shuffling continued through all '92, all '93 and all '94 until somewhere in 1995 when I picked up a brand of black tobacco called Parisiens. Here the story changes since believing that the Parisiens were more healthy than blonde cigarettes I started to smoke around a pack of twenty per day. In these days (all '95 and all '96) I was going to a school near by to my house. But when in March of '97 I shifted to a school in the downtown again and I stopped the twenty black tobacco cigarettes per day returning to the old habit of ten blonde cigarettes per day.

For economic reasons I had to quit the cigarettes in December of 1997. But after four years smoking I was ensnared already and the craving sensation was very, very strong. So I have bought a pipe and a pack of Borkum Riff cavendish. In December of 1997 begins my pipe smoking.

I managed to keep myself aloof from cigarettes with the pipe, but till a certain point only. Since I begun with the pipe I could smoke it instead of cigarettes but in my house only. It was enough for me to be somewhere else for lighting a cigarette that I begged from somebody, that I was offered or that I had bought loose because I was away from my house and the pipe. But I was losing my taste for the cigarettes in spite of the pipe.

This changed in late '98 when I begun to smoke a lot of cigarettes again while I continued with the pipe. I was not able to buy all the time expensive tobacco like Borkum Riff, Clan, Indian Summer, Holland House, Sail and such, so I picked up a very cheap brand of tobacco. This brand (Richmond) was so cheap that with the money that I bought a pack of reds I could buy a bag of fifty grams and smoke for around a week. Needless to say that I knew how to smoke a pipe. Tasting the smoke and taking it not farther down than the larynx. Never taking it to the lungs as with the cigarettes.

All through '99 the pipe smoking and the on and off mood with cigarettes continued, sometimes not touching a single cigarette for entire weeks. This made me feel proud and confident that I had somewhat defeated the cigarette smoking vice, but it was not so.

In late '99, When I travelled to the US for the first time, after the advice received by my brother, I started stealing menthol Bensons from the pack of my father's girlfriend; because she used to let it in the kitchen at night. I am not sure why I did this, because I have taken my pipes with me to the US and I was smoking the pipe tobacco that was available there: Captain Black and a bigger pack of generic brand aromatic vanilla tobacco.

With the nightly consumption of menthol Bensons I had fallen from all what I have gained of smoking only pipe tobacco. By February of 2000, and back in Argentina, I had picked up the reds again, letting the pipe for extreme cases.

All 2000 I smoked reds until I returned to the US. I still had my pipes and the cigarettes, in late 2000 in US, were very expensive, something like 4.50 U$D, so I took up pipe smoking again.

This time I smoked only Captain Black, but the pipe smoking culture and discipline had left me. I started inhaling the pipe smoke to the lungs.

Note: this attempt to quit was not successful.

Introduction To The Blog

2008-04-13T21:51:00.001+01:00

I think I was programmed from my early childhood to represent an archetype of eternal youth and heroism and for bringing hope and inspiration to people like you. Before, one of the worst things I had to fight was being at immediate risk, [and eventually being victimized] of being infected by the ideology and mentality of masons seemingly aspiring to become Illuminati.

Let me tell you my story: I am sure that I was somewhat programmed since being a toddler with particular things that remembering them now at 30 tell a story as if they were sygns or omens separate parts of a bigger tale. It may sound very disparaging for those that do not believe in the doctrine of the transmigration of the soul [ie: reincarnation] I, find sygns that tell me about who I was in previous lives. I tell you just because I am always voluntarily keeping an open mind since I am a yogi and I like to be open minded always. This correlates with how much vulnerable to psychic attack and mind control I have put myself since I became an awakened person and started being spiritual.

Having many [ex] kinwomen like a grand mother and six grand aunts and aunts that practice degenerate forms of witchcraft, and being fed Disney all through my childhood I was in some way being prepared for some future event to become more ensnared in their demoniac and enviously jaundiced culture of mind control and black magic works.

I forgot to tell something important about my [ex] lineage. These [ex] kin are mostly from a family from Sicilly that in NYC is one of the most infamous names of the mafia. But my [ex] lineage came from Italy to South America instead of going to US. I bet they could not get a visa like the ones who will become Mafiosi in NYC of so demonic they were. Very serious: seven sisters witches, grand mother and grand aunts. So to speak-

I was generally dissociative and mentally deaf until 21 years old. I was very much empirical minded and thought that phenomena like telepathy and mind control could only be possible if the subjects experimenting it were in the same room. I thought that I knew about the mind, but in fact I was spiritually dead. Still, I had feelings and emotions. I perceived some of the elements of the mind and other planes but as I told, I was not mentally sound by any means, and until 21 was when I have suffered the most.

The years that followed, although they were worst that when spiritually asleep before 21, I started having a full blown personality and discovering what was the reason of having a so full of misery childhood and adolescence: constant tendencies to dissolution of my belongings [this was far worst when I was a child], subliminal telepathic hypnotism, black magic and demonology against me. I started to fight them spiritually. I am sorry for the ex-[deprogrammed]monarchs that will read this, but just before being awakened by God's grace at 21 I had somewhat came to the lowest point in my social and personal history, and I also became too much influenced, because I started going out with the daughter of a mason.

She told me how she was traumatized when she was a kid. Not like in US, more of a light version of it. She never saw how his father the mason illuminatus aspirant [seemingly] burning up alive or skinning alive a kid but she has seen how his father burnt up to a mishmash of plastic her and her sister's toys. She loved too much her Rosicrucian mother and says that hates her Masonic father. She never told me nothing more about other traumas perpetrated against she or her belongings, but after going out for one year and a half I came to know she a little and can tell that she was traumatized in some ways. For instance, she never gave up her alleged virginity to me. Meanwhile I was loving she very much. But she was the most shy and sexually neurotic kid I have had as a girlfriend. That is why back then, at 20 years I started living a very difficult life. I think I have upset much more my former enemies and the new ones [acquired after this girlfriend] because of my awakening.

In those days, as I have read that happens when the illuminati are involved, my girlfriend, her mother and one of her sisters that lived together were in the dire straits of bankruptcy and displacement by the negligence of a businessman that owned them money of a property they sold through him. They had nobody to ask for help when they were kicked out from where they were living. Only the mason father of the girls. They did and this man gave them an abandoned house "of the family", near to a cemetery, to stay until they could better their situation. I spent three or four days with them in that house. Let me tell you that I have not seen nothing comparable to the furniture and the paintings that I have seen in that downtrodden abandoned house. The shapes of the bourgeois furniture and satanic themes of the paintings were of a decidedly macabre tone.

My awakening changed me completely from being an empirical minded, innocent creature to the state of mental power and spiritual identity. For those who do not understand me, search for "Nirvikalpa Samadhi" and read what is. That is what I have lived at 21 after three years doing yoga almost continually.

By some unfortunate reason, by August of 1998 when my awakening occurred I was being less and less with the mason's daughter but I was already hooked in their strata of degradation and mental strife, because I was hanging out with a group of new friends from the school in a spot on the downtown less than 1 kilometer from the Masonic temple. My very strange and spoiled life became a hell on earth because I did not have any spiritual training as a way to cope with the weak points of the novelty of the mental power of being awakened. I was rescued by my father who lives in US and took me there in November of 1999. I was not seeing him for the last 6 or 7 years and he had changed completely my perspectives of life, specially because in those months of late '98 and '99 I was completely wasted, physically, socially and morally, for hanging out in a spot so nearby to the Masonic temple. . . I was convinced of not having any future and everything started to appear worthless to me. . .

I feel that the people who prosecutes other people mentally, emotionally, electronically or in whatever way is people in the lowest rung of evolution. They are people of demonic nature that are so much unfortunate, wrong and empty that they cannot tolerate freedom, fortune, beauty, prospects, a better future nor any other good quality in those who are truly superior to them in character, love, wealth, spirituality, morals, social class, beauty, etc. I know that supposedly only God can judge who is inferior or superior, but I am an awakened person; I am not God but I am in a situation of clairvoyance that lets me judge somebody for his/her actions.

I have lived in India in my twenties. I have not experienced the bad things I have experienced here in occident. To give you an example: in India I have never heard any voices telling nothing negative to me. The [few] voices I heard in India were friendly and loving. Except when I was remembering occident.

The theory that I have is that my neighbors are overpowered by the rest of my enemies and they [being also my enemies out of basically covetousness and envious greed] take the toil of prosecuting me mentally. Those of you who have been prosecuted mentally, have you stopped to think what kind of person is who is eager to do it? It is the empty, unfortunate and envious people that cannot tolerate their victim's superior surfeits of leisure, superior social connections, superior knowledge, higher feelings and so on. . .

I will tell you what they do to me: they think they have the emotional monopoly of the neighborhood. . . they think they are the only ones allowed to feel cool emotions and vibes and use the method of denying me each time I start feeling a cool emotion or vibe. I have being a victim of emotional flatness for all the time that I have lived in this house because the envy of the jaundiced neighbors. When I was younger I always suffered emotional drainage. Then I have lived in many other places also but did not have this problem. It is obvious that here, in this working-class district, there is no space for kindness, since this district is a district of slaughterhouses and butcheries; one of the worst districts of Buenos Aires City.

And when I returned, after four years abroad, I found the new neighbors who are persons of the worst character. I do not know how is it possible. I think they take advantage of my way of being. I do not know how they are able to check the cool emotions when I start feeling them. It goes like this: when I start feeling the blow of a superb vibe I hear "NO" in my mind or sometimes the sound comes clearly from the back of the house, where they live. After the "NO" is heard, the cool vibe/feeling/emotion is always gone. . .

I discovered my ailment of emotional flatness as early as 1992, when I was 15 years. And since then, in this district of hills of abbatoirs, it continues. I have read Dion Fortune's book about psychic vampires and noted that she is true when she prescribes leaving the place where the psychic vampires operate as the most reliable cure to the problem.

Thanks to discovering my problem at 15, I was always very much inclined to learn about feelings and emotions. In India I have acquired a great wealth of knowledge about it, and I have learnt a thing fundamental to the exchange of feelings. Feelings are exchanged only among equals. As a matter of fact, I would prefer emotional flatness to exchange feelings with such outcast demonic neighbors, but monopolizing the mind and the spirit of a person the way they do is not fair. They hate when somebody out of love and empathy blows my mind and start denying me and the feelings, out of envy and covetousness.

It goes without saying that I have to be more careful than needed because they also try to mess me up using myself as their agent. If I do not concentrate my mind, they try to control me by hypnotism; for me to do my things wrongly. I believe that they think they have the right to hinder my social life. They know that I having a girlfriend or something of the like will mean the power of humbling them emotionally. . . but that is not all. The voices seem to think that they may have some power over me and over how I may plan, execute and reap the fruits of my actions, because they also deny me when I start working for my benefit. It is very annoying. . . but I will not leave the place in a hurry, because they seem unable to cope with my perspective of my future in a much better place than this. While staying, I take pleasure on thinking that I am leaving to have more than what I already have, no less, and in a much better place. But they seem to want me leaving fast. I return them their tortures with the denying of leaving in a haste to something uncertain. But they insist, because some other of the voices I hear say to me "Go away."

I have read Springmeier and Wheeler's book, "{The Illuminati Formula Used to Create an Undetectable Total Mind Controlled Slave}" you may have discerned it. I just could not expect freemasonry being that. I must admit that I wanted to enter the Masonic temple's library. I must thank God of having made them so a private cult, because I was not allowed to enter it and after having read the book of Fritz and Cisco I am thankful that my search for occult knowledge about Satan in the Masonic temple's library ended that way.

It is because I have read that book that I have finally understood why my life became so miserable when I became an awakened person. . . I had to acquire spiritual identity fast and I was inevitably goaded by the mental, emotional and social hardships of those days of 9 years before. For many people it may appear that I fell from the pan of Buenos Aires City Downtown Masonic temple surroundings because I did the most predictable step for a self taught yogi and rose to the fire of the Hare Krishnas for learning devotion. After remembering God and being able to feel in Krishna's temple as in my own house what sad irony is that my biggest house, the Hare Krishnas, is infiltrated by the Illuminati.

I lived with the Hare Krishnas many, many months and was told some very alarming things. But they were told to me in a very poetic manner that I did not grasp the gravity of the situation. Like us being infiltrated by the CIA and the illuminati. I did not know about the illuminati when I begun learning until which point ISKCON is infiltrated by "demons" as how they are called within the movement.

I must admit that when staying in a Hare Krishna city were these demons live I have had the worst nightmare of my life. On it I was raped by gurus and other entities that looked like shadows.

Now I want to tell you other very sad story pertaining my first days in ISKCON in Shreedam Mayapur when I was in India. I was 24 years, so much already brainwashed by one month living in a Hare Krishna ashram in Buenos Aires that I trusted the devotees blindly. I have let a folder with my complete collection of info of all my life to a Russian ISKCON devotee to find a few hours later that my two most important CDs were scratched and beyond all apparent way of fixing them. In those CDs I had the log of my digital life, like logs of chatting with friends, background work of my arts, letters, and such things that I was collecting through the years and appreciated very much since I am never very eager to purge my files because I like redundancy with my info. . . I do not know what happened, but what a coincidence that no one of my CDs with software was scratched like the ones with personal data.